Too screwed up to function

I'm really worried that I'm too messed up in the head to function. I don't know how much longer I can take it, it seems to take so much energy just to stay barely functional, I suppose I'm just one of those lazy entitled millennials everyone is talking about. I'm never gonna be able to hold down a job that pays well enough to support myself, I want to contribute, I really do but I can't shut down the cascade of negative thoughts most days. I've tried therapy before, I've been on medication it just doesn't seem to help. I had a complete breakdown about 4 years ago and was hospitalized for four days. I just can't seem to untangle the mess in my head and be either the person I want to be or the person others need me to be. I'm just so tired...

i feel your pain... i would keep trying to do therapy if you can... it can be really helpful if you have a good therapist... someone you can talk to well and feel comfortable with...

medication can help if you get the right meds.. but these things dont just fix it, it is a battle... keep fighting stay strong... where there is a will there is a way... soetimes we just have to bulldoze a path through and make the way as we go...

I know exactly what you mean Annoyed! I wish I had a magic wand or some other way to make the negative thoughts go away. I agree with elevatedsoul. Finding a good therapist can make a world of difference. Keep trying to banish those negative thoughts and keeping reaching out to us.

I just feel like I'm fighting with myself constantly, for example I have been letting my hygiene go down the drain lately, going days without showering, brushing my teeth once a day, maybe, why does this have to be an argument with myself! It's so freaking stupid!

I feel ya AnnoyedGrunt, I sometimes go for days without showering, usually only doing so when I see how oily my hair gets, or how bad I smell. I always seemingly have an inner dialogue going on in my mind, an argument, where I say I need to do this or that, and then I argue back and forth, seemingly pushing through a wall of molasses to get my body in motion to do something, like cleaning my bedroom.

Some days I feel like my head is a multilane freeway during rush hour with a huge multicar pile-up in in all of the lanes. It's just chaotic and thoughts seemingly come and go and tangle up on one another. It's when the noise in my head becomes unbearable that I grab my journal and just write whatever it is that's in my head at the time, and get it out of there to clear up some of the congestion.

So yeah, I can so relate to what you're going through, and I want you to know you're not alone. I guess if you feel you're at the point where the wall is no longer molasses but brick and your mind is so congested it feels like it won't ever clear up, then maybe asking for help from someone like a therapist could help.

In the meantime, I'd try the journal idea. You don't have to write in it everyday or anything, just when you feel something needs to get out of your head. Journaling shouldn't be a chore, but something to look forward to, a way of releasing yourself and creating a feeling of peace.

I hope you feel better soon.

Hugs and journaling and therapist are great advice I'm just coming out of a depression that started last April I was hospitalized 3 times, it's been a battle! Wishing you the best!

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