[Roserose329]

I am morbidly depeessed. I can't crawl out of this hole I'm in. And everything is stacking up on top of me. So many issues from the past. So many issues now. I'm afraid for the future. I never coped with the things from my childhood. So I never learned how to cope. I just stuff all of my cap into a compartment in my brain and hide it there. But every time something new happens. ..it's like everything from that compartment spills out and I have to either try to deal with it or stuff it back in. But I'm on overload. To many new things happening right now. Idk how to handle it. What to do. Any advice?? Suggestions? ?

[qwerty68]

Are you seeing a therapist? If not that would be a good place to start. Having someone to talk out the things that are causing you issues might be helpful.

You could go into specifics here and I am sure someone here could relate. I wasn't expecting to hang around here after my first few posts but I have found that simply posting helps me process things and I am doing better today than I was when I first posted.

[Roserose329]

I was seeing one years ago but he got transferred and I haven't gotten another. I've had bad experiences with some therapists before. And I know they aren't all bad. But trying to find a new one would be hard to do.
And I would like to post about what has been happening but idk how to put the triggers in..

[cryingontheinside]

I felt similar to what you described last month. I still have fears about the future but I'm no longer in despair. Do you want to talk more about what's going on for you? Please feel free to pm me

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[elevatedsoul]

if you want to use the trigger code its [ trigger] message [/ trigger] without spaces

i do the same thing as you are saying here... its not healthy though and is only compounding the problem and making smaller future problems much bigger than they should be, know what i mean?

i have had 2 therapists so far... the first one was amazing, she had to leave the clinic though so i tried a new one a few weeks later... and she scared the hell out of me
but even though that was a pretty bad experience... i still have to try to get a good therapist because its the only way i will be able to work out the kinks in my psyche...

i think that maybe its what you need too, we have to have an outlet... if not we end up blowing up eventually or melting down...

meds can help a little but therapy is the gold standard in my opinion...
just have to get a good therapist that you like and feel comfortable with...

stay strong...

[qwerty68]

I know what you mean. I had a evil therapist and I can't seem to force myself to try another. It is a tough thing to overcome, one of these days I will hopefully ask my pdoc for a referral(I am in the VA system and need one to see a therapist). I know I am wrong and I know I am hurting myself, but I can't get out of my own way.

[itjustis]

I would definitely recommend you see a therapist. It might take a while to find one you connect with but it'll be worth it. Therapy might not even be for you, but I started seeing a therapist at the end of last year for a current crisis and somehow she picked away and got me to open up about my childhood. It's one of the best things I've ever done. I'm currently going through a bout of depression and it's awful. Getting out of bed is a struggle. I feel for you. *hugs*

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[Roserose329]

Thank you everyone for responding. You all make perfect sense and it really helps I think I will be trying to get a therapist. I really need some coping skills lol its good to know I'm not alone thanks again. It really means a lot to me to see people that actually understand and care

[elevatedsoul]

completely

this stuff is just a hard challenge and we have to be vigilant and persistent...
its not easy but we are strong...

[DespHisp]

Originally Posted by Roserose329

I am morbidly depeessed. I can't crawl out of this hole I'm in. And everything is stacking up on top of me. So many issues from the past. So many issues now. I'm afraid for the future. I never coped with the things from my childhood. So I never learned how to cope. I just stuff all of my cap into a compartment in my brain and hide it there. But every time something new happens. ..it's like everything from that compartment spills out and I have to either try to deal with it or stuff it back in. But I'm on overload. To many new things happening right now. Idk how to handle it. What to do. Any advice?? Suggestions? ?

Oh Jesus.!!.Roserose329...i can almost see myself in everything you wrote.
i am personally loosing my battle...i do not know how to cope with my worst thoughts,which are very recurrent and in greater waves when they come and i can literally affirm that just like you,i would love to receive at least one good suggestion,one in which neither meds or docs are mentioned.....
in your case,,,i can only suggest you to be with your family and be open and sincere with them,,tell them what is torturing you and you will get not only love and comprehension but also advice and support...
and please believe me when i say this:listen to them,,,give them a chance to help you...you can still recover,,,,i didn´t,,,,
obs:i hope you don´t mind asking you if i could chat with you sometimes..i would love that...