Hi. I know I'm depressed, but I used to at least pretend I could function. I'm tired. I eat. I avoid new things I want to do. It's not all bad. I went for a 3 mile hike today and yesterday. I'm not around people a lot though, I'm pretty solitary, and that's not how I enjoy living my life. Ive been dwelling on negative stuff that shouldn't matter. I don't have a job and can't see how I can work unless I start feeling better. I used to think it was my fault. Like, maybebthe way I was thinking or behaving was causing me to be depressed. It seems like all the self help books say that lately. After being on wellbutrin for.a month though, then going back to lexapro, I experienced some changes during that time, and I dunno.

I would like to go on a different med. And in the meantime, not be too hard on myself. And do what I can. But yeah, not be too hard on myself.

[elevatedsoul]

i think 1 month is kind of short trying antidepressant...
they wont work fast... its just one day you will wake up and may feel a little better...
depression is a condition... being depressed isn't really your fault...
its just a way that the brain has started working...
we have to work to try to change that way to get in a new condition that may make us happy...
keep fighting... you may have to give medicines a little more time to see effects from them... if your depression is mild i would even say do therapy instead of medicine...
CBT can help you change the way you perceive things...


excercise is good too... it will produce good feel good chemicals ...

Thanks ElevatesSoul. It was giving me side effects that made me really anxious and I couldn't sleep.

I wanted to share this. Look what I found: Dealing with Depression: Self-Help and Coping Tips to Overcome Depression

[elevatedsoul]

yeah wellbutrin can cause anxiety in some
its an NDRI so it increases the norepinephrine and dopamine... nore~ is pretty much adrenaline...

i hope the lexapro wil help for you

thats a good article... but i think its important to think about the things that make you feel depressed...
doing all of that will help, but if it doesnt address the root of the depression i dont think it will get better..?
i know i have tried for years... but i haven't been able to address my problem so my depression just gets worse for the most part...

like if your room is purple and it make you have negative emotions, maybe paint it green or blue or white or yellow or something that makes you feel better.. ya know?
if its because you aren't working, then maybe getting a small job working a couple hours a week starting off will greatly improve your mood... like the article says, start small...

if there is trauma, the trauma needs to be addressed...

things can improve, but we do have to work for it..
it is good to have good support too, if you have a good friend or some good friends.. or join a group.. its good