[MtnTime2896]

It hurts too much and I can't scream. I can whisper all I want and no one hears. A think fast but focus on none of it. I'm in pain but I'm numb. I'm angry but lack the energy to do anything about it. People are all around me and I feel like I'm alone in an empty auditorium.

Nothing makes sense and nothing has any color anymore. Nothing black or white. Its all just there and I can't see it. If I do I don't seem to care.

I go through these periods of time where I have zero emotion and other times hurting so bad I can't breathe. I'm missing time out of each day and I can't get it back. I don't feel real. Life's just seems to be a sick joke.

Most the time I don't feel, but when I do I just...hurt.

(((((hugs)))))

i really agree about life being a sick joke- who ever came up with this
you suffer and struggle every day, you always want more- but are never sure what you do want, and eventually life's taken away from you anyway- so if you're thinking about suicide or not, it doesn ot seem to matter... you just die eventually

even if you have your ideal job and your ideal lifestyle, it's taken away from you eventually... so i don't understand it. at all

[Clapper]

I perfectly understand your feelings. Sometimes, things arr too hard, and life seems pointless. All i can say to you iz find as many friends as you can find and talk to them about your feelings.

Please understand that it is vital. Communication is vital part.

[Fizzyo]