[fishoutofwater1984]

I'm new here i just posted in the schitzophrenic section a question a bout my husband but it hasnt shown up yet...i have been diagnosed recently with clinical depression i have a two year old and a schitzophrenic bipolar husband...I've been at my breaking point for a while now but have been trying to ignore it and push through but its getting almost impossible to do anymore the only thing that seems to make me truely happy is my baby..and i feel like such a crappy parent and feel sorry for him that he has a dad who is unstable and doesn't think clearly all the time who is schitzophrenic and a mother who has sunk into a deep depression..i am there for him i take care of him and love him with all my heart it just sucks...I'm tired all the time mentally and physically i feel like I'm in this pit and there's no way out and my attempts are quickly shut down..it feel stuck in this and hopeless..i have always had anxiety and self estem issues light depression that came and went but never stayed and never was this bad..i feel so lost and alone..I'm not suicidal and i don't beleive in it..but i have these what if thoughts that have been cropping up and sometimes i just want to crawl up in under a rock thoughts...of course i dony want to die and i know its related to spme how just trying to get peace but its screwed up and it scares me.

[Clara22]

Hi Fishoutofwater,
Thanks a lot for sharing. I hope you find support in this place as I do. You have a lot on your plate right now. And you deserve to be better not only for you but also for your baby. My brother who (I think) has mental health issues and/or drug abuse issues lives upstairs and sometimes life is unbearable for me. Sometimes I felt I could not go on anymore.
Please, keep posting and communicating because sometimes we can find responses and useful tips (and a lot of support) here.
I am sending you a big hug

I'm really sorry to hear this. 1) Would your husband be open to your attending a visit with him to his psychiatrist and/or therapist's? 2) Is it possible to attend therapy as a couple? 3) Is there such a thing as respite care where you reside?

[Fizzyo]

Hi Fishoutofwater, welcome to PC.

Thank you for sharing with us. You will find your first five posts are slow to appear as they will be moderated before they appear. After that they will come up immediately and you will be able to join the chats too. Look at the calendar for any hosted chats which may be of interest.

I hope you find support here. People here have helped me through some dark times and I hope you get as much encouragement from this community as I have.