I am depressed again. I see no point in continuing my life, so therefore i should be depressed. All my life i have failed to make friends, get work, have a girlfriend, achieve anything. It's just been existing and hoping.

Now that I live alone, my moods can vary a bit more. Today I just started to feel depressed because i cancelled a social outing because I don't feel like going. Sometimes I feel ok, in fact most of the time I feel alright, but underneath it all I think I am still depressed a lot.

I have been thinking of going to school or something, just so I can feel that I am doing something. So far I am just making myself be somewhat productive by making myself stick to to-do lists so that my days are not completely wasted. Part of my to-do list is sort of to look into study, or work, etc.

Anyway, I don't know why I wrote this thread. I can't go to this social outing this weekend. I feel overweight, ugly, and I need a haircut.

Goodnight.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Illegal... Well... I guess I'm kind-of at the tail end of where you're at. I'm old. Over the decades, I have gored everyone who has reached out for me. I've had quite a few different jobs. Most of them went badly. I am married... although I can't really take any credit for that. It's mostly just because my wife refuses to give up on me. If I were her, I'd have thrown me out years ago! Personally I'm still existing... but I'm no longer hoping. That's all behind me now. (By the way, I also need a haircut!)

Going to school sounds like a great idea if you can swing it. Another idea would be to see if there is some volunteer work you could become involved with. Helping others is pretty-much an accepted way of feeling better about oneself. I would guess that living alone can be difficult. It would be easy to slip into depression & not even realize it. So I think the fact that you feel alright most days is to be celebrated! I wish you well...

[ExhaustedMom]

Do you have social anxiety or you just don't feel like going out with people? When I feel down, the last thing I want to do is see people. It's draining to do so. I try to go out and do something anyways but sometimes the depressed mood wins. Sometimes, I'll fight my depression.

Don't give up! You can recover from depression! It takes time.

Keep on posting. Keeping it all bottled up inside isn't good. And we're all here to support each other through our good days and our bad days!

[UglyDucky]

Originally Posted by Illegal Toilet

I am depressed again. I see no point in continuing my life, so therefore i should be depressed. All my life i have failed to make friends, get work, have a girlfriend, achieve anything. It's just been existing and hoping.

Now that I live alone, my moods can vary a bit more. Today I just started to feel depressed because i cancelled a social outing because I don't feel like going. Sometimes I feel ok, in fact most of the time I feel alright, but underneath it all I think I am still depressed a lot.

I have been thinking of going to school or something, just so I can feel that I am doing something. So far I am just making myself be somewhat productive by making myself stick to to-do lists so that my days are not completely wasted. Part of my to-do list is sort of to look into study, or work, etc.

Anyway, I don't know why I wrote this thread. I can't go to this social outing this weekend. I feel overweight, ugly, and I need a haircut.

Goodnight.

I'm sorry you feel so depressed. Do you take medication or have you seen a therapist? I don't have enough $$ to go back to college (I have a degree), but we have a university that allows a person to audit one class per semester for free; that was helpful for me the semesters I took advantage of it.

And, yes, living alone does seem to make depression a bit harder to deal with. Have you thought that maybe volunteering a couple of hours a week for something that interests you might help you feel more productive? I know just getting started on anything is a struggle....

Maybe getting that hair cut could start the ball rolling...?

(((IT)))

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( IT )))))))))

Originally Posted by ExhaustedMom

Do you have social anxiety or you just don't feel like going out with people? When I feel down, the last thing I want to do is see people. It's draining to do so. I try to go out and do something anyways but sometimes the depressed mood wins. Sometimes, I'll fight my depression.

Thank you, yes I have social anxiety however in this case I think it was the depression that kept me at home.