[vanishingacts]

Sometimes when I have been feeling really horrible, when I'm at my worst, I write letters to my close friends and family, as though I had killed myself. I don't know why this brings me comfort. Its like I have all these emotions swirling in my head and when I write them, I feel less guilty about what I'm thinking about doing. Is this normal or healthy? I don't really understand

[Unrigged64072835]

Writing does help with getting my thoughts out of my head. For me it's a sense of relief that I'm not bottling that stuff up inside anymore.

[TishaBuv]

You can tell if it feels healthy for yourself. You say it gives you comfort...why do you feel comforted when you do it? If you are seriously thinking about Sui, that is definitely not healthy. You know that. If you are fantasizing, role playing, being dramatic and not taking yourself seriously, then I guess it might not be unhealthy.

i've done this actually.

i usually write down my feelings like a note, feel a whole lot better for actually writing it in the first place, then tear it up (the fact i actually wrote my feelings down like a note makes things more focussed)

i wouldn't say it's a replacement for my journal- my journal is still important to me, vbut in note form, your reasons and your plans seem more... how should i say, drawn out- you have more confidence

[RandolphCarter1919]

I keep a journal and it certainly helps. I can vouch for and agree that writing is a healthy way of getting your feelings out and sometimes helps those who don't understand, understand. I once showed my brother and parents my journal and it was eye opening.

Now, I've never written letters in the same manner you have but I would mimic what Tisha says, that if it feels healthy than by all means, but if there is serious consideration then obviously it isn't.

Originally Posted by RandolphCarter1919

I keep a journal and it certainly helps. I can vouch for and agree that writing is a healthy way of getting your feelings out and sometimes helps those who don't understand, understand. I once showed my brother and parents my journal and it was eye opening.

Now, I've never written letters in the same manner you have but I would mimic what Tisha says, that if it feels healthy than by all means, but if there is serious consideration then obviously it isn't.

you are brave

i don't think i could ever show my journal to family

it would just be 1 more nail in the ground if you know what i mean

I have written letters in the past. It was cathartic. I was able to articulate a lot of what was hurting me that I wasn't aware of until I put pen to paper and also in some instances it helped me realise how much certain people meant to me and how much I still wanted to be here with them/for them...so I stayed another day and so on etc

I now keep a blog and write there anonymously when the mood takes me

[RandolphCarter1919]

I do know what you mean Shattered. It took me awhile to get up the nerve to show them...but much like -Bix, I was able to write down problems, feelings, more accurately when speaking wasn't doing it justice.

How are you doing Vanishing? Just checking in on you.

[vanishingacts]

Originally Posted by RandolphCarter1919

I do know what you mean Shattered. It took me awhile to get up the nerve to show them...but much like -Bix, I was able to write down problems, feelings, more accurately when speaking wasn't doing it justice.

How are you doing Vanishing? Just checking in on you.

Honestly, I've had a horrible day. A real low point today. School was nearly impossible, I felt like I was being choked and I couldn't breathe. But, I'm on here now and I can forget about that for a while. thank you

Did you get a chance to call headspace today vanishing?
I am sorry you had such a rough day we are here for you

[vanishingacts]

Originally Posted by -Bix

Did you get a chance to call headspace today vanishing?
I am sorry you had such a rough day we are here for you

My dad forgot to pay my phone bill so I'm going to lunch time tomorrow. I'm feeling a little better but I can't shake the thought that I have school tomorrow too so I'll have to go through it all again

[RandolphCarter1919]

Originally Posted by vanishingacts

Honestly, I've had a horrible day. A real low point today. School was nearly impossible, I felt like I was being choked and I couldn't breathe. But, I'm on here now and I can forget about that for a while. thank you

Sorry the day was so rough. And I am glad you can log on here and find some comfort.

[Hopeofreedom]

I too have done that but it was at one of my lowest points, when I was truly ready to give up.

It depends on the intent I think. For some it's healing but for me it just made me more sad because I felt like I had so much to apologize for.