[RedStorms]

Every time I start to feel better about myself, start to feel like life is worth living, like I'm finally digging myself out of this hole... somebody goes out of their way to make me feel like garbage. They don't even stop to think about it, they just see that I'm hurting, and they pounce. Like hyenas. I had a shred of self-confidence yesterday, but someone took that away from me almost immediately. For no reason. They just though it'd be fun. I'm so tired of this constant tide out of depression then right back in. It feels so hopeless. I'm broken. Some part of me is gone, and I'm never getting it back. I used to be a normal human, but now I'm just fulfilling basic functions. Eat, sleep, repeat. Every day. I have no ambition, nothing I want from life anymore. I've got no talents or interests, absolutely no promise. I'm not special in any way, shape, or form. Unless you count being utterly average in everything. I'm so tired.

[Skeezyks]

Hello RedStorms: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. I'm an older person. But I feel very much the same about myself. My entire life, I've never been more than mediocre at anything. In a lot of cases, I was wasn't even that!

I personally just keep to myself at this point in my life. I prefer not to have contact with anyone, in real life. As a result, I don't have problems with other people bringing me down. But I seem to be pretty darn good at that all by myself. Every time I begin to feel like I've conquered my self-destructive tendencies, they swell up & overwhelm me. I strive to accept my self-destructive tendencies... with lovingkindness & compassion. But it's hard...

I send healing thoughts your way with the hope that you will be able to find deep peace within...

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry that you feel this way : sadhug: I feel the same way. But please, don't give up... hold on to every single bit of hope you have. Things can, must and will get better.

[Fuzzybear]

[Yours_Truly]

I understand how you feel. I feel utterly mediocre also.

I'm sorry on your behalf, RedStorms!

[Unrigged64072835]

I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough time.

[JustJace2u]

I can relate to you as this has happened to me in the past. At this point I've pretty much shut out almost anyone I've ever been friends with, except a select few. I've even stopped talking to family members because of those types of things.

[vanishingacts]

I can't really say that I've been there, my depression crippled me in short bursts so that I would build my hopes up of getting better only to feel worse and watch them crash back down. But what brought me comfort was the idea that it won't always be like this. That if I've hit rock bottom it couldn't possibly get worse.