[Hopefull]

I watched the show Sybil. I cried my head off because Dr. Wilbur was so nurturing just like my T is. Dr wilbur holds Sybil/Peggy in a chair in session. My T has offered a hug to me twice but I have never entirely taken her up on the offer because my transferance creeps me out (T is my inner child's mother).
When my T comes back from medical leave, I think I am going to cry all over the place and hug her to peices. I'm not going to want to let her go. I keep wondering when she is coming "home." I am tired of editing my thoughts to replace the word "home" with the word "back." I feel so attached to her that I want her to come and hold me and soothe me. My substitute T is nice but she and I don't have a relationship yet. I will meet my substitute T for the second time next week. I know that my odd feelings for T would transfer to the substitute T relatively quickly but I want my Janie. See, I even pet named my T. I sometimes feel like a three year-old waiting for her mom to come home and send the babysitter away.
The subsitute T forgot to give me a business card and so I can't even leave a voice mail.
PS if you have not seen the movie Sybil, it is a very good movie. It gives a good idea of what therapy is like and what I suspect mental illness is like. It may have some triggering parts if you have been abused as a child.

[Christina86]

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I'm sorry about your T being away - switching T's, even for a short time is hard.