[eliz214]

Hi everyone,

I'm new to the forum and am reaching out because I feel so alone. A month ago I withdrew from nursing school because of intense panic/feeling overwhelmed, and now I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. It feels like my life crumbled in front of me...I have no future plans and am totally "lost." Nursing had been my career plan for years.

Since then I've felt depressed and anxious...absolutely nothing brings me any joy and I cannot feel any fulfillment. Has anyone felt this before? I'm usually a somewhat happy person (although I've had depression in the past) but I cannot feel fulfilled no matter what I do or who I'm with. I'm also afraid to be alone now and have been spending lots of time at my mother's (and feel pathetic since I'm 30). I'm lonely and unfulfilled..and scared it will never pass. can anyone relate?

(((((((hugs)))))

it's understandable you feel this way. it was your life, and you really enjoyed it

you are only 30, so you have plenty of time to think about something else you might want to do and take the steps to make it happen (it won't happen overnight, but maybe something will come in to your head), a sort of ah, yes, I could do that type moment.

as for me.. yes, I do know how you feel. I never really had a plan for my life at all, and actually at times feel really guilty about it- here I am, being given the gift of life, and all I'm doing with it is throwing it away

before the days of MI, i did briefly think about being a computer technitian- but the hospital visits, the intense MI, lack of qualifications all played a part.. and when i was told i couldn't work, that was really the nail in the cofin for that idea anyway

by the way wwelcome to the site. hope it helps

[chesspoliwag]

You are 30, you still have time to figure things out.
Maybe you should learn something new even if you think it can't fulfill you right now.
Learn how to play some instrument, play chess, program, new idioms... idk, why not? give a shot

[clarissadalloway08]

Hi Eliz214, I feel your pain because I'm in a similar situation. I'm in my late 20's and recently quit a very, very good job because I felt uninspired, depressed, and not respected in my role there. That action disappointed a lot of friends and family who looked at me as a 'success' and a strong young woman but I have never felt I was either of those things. Now, i spend my days working out, reading, staring out my window, and feeling bad for myself about my work life, personal life, and lack of direction.

I hope you find some sunshine soon. I know from experience that when things are going very badly for me, that usually means they're about to go very, very well soon.

[eliz214]

Thanks everyone for the replies.. It helps me feel a little better knowing that I'm not the only one who feels like this. I appreciate the encouragment.

Hi Eliz214, I feel your pain because I'm in a similar situation. I'm in my late 20's and recently quit a very, very good job because I felt uninspired, depressed, and not respected in my role there. That action disappointed a lot of friends and family who looked at me as a 'success' and a strong young woman but I have never felt I was either of those things. Now, i spend my days working out, reading, staring out my window, and feeling bad for myself about my work life, personal life, and lack of direction.

clarissadalloway08- I understand.. I feel a total, complete lack of direction! It's nerve-racking because I've always had a "plan" and now I have no clue what I want to do. I almost feel incapable of finding a fullfilling career that I would actually like. Good for you for going with your heart and quitting because it wasn't making you happy. Money and "success" are definitely not everything. Success is when we find what makes us happy, or are at least on the path of trying to figure that out.