[wisewoman]

I was trying to get back to sleep this morning after bringing my kids to the bus and the phone rings. It is the credit card company recording. I have been way anxious eversince, feel the depressive thinking comin g back. Life has been stressful. My husband lost his job last year and had to take one which pays rock bottom. I have been payinig everything from my income, including a college tuition. I do not make a lot of money either as I am in human services. This credit card on top of cancer bills and lawyer bills and a 600 dollar car repair and and and ... I am doing what I know to be helpful. Breathe in, breathe out, acknowledge the thought or feeling. I too have a habit of over giving. Really, it's more then that. I don't think that what I have is worth anything so I give it away where as I should be making money on it. I had 3 old laptops which could have fetched $100 each if I knew where to sell them. I gave them away. The people are much more needy then I, these are things I came across and tinkered with and passed on. It's hard not to let this anxiety run away with me.

[Rapunzel]

The world needs more people like you. If everyone gave when they had something and saw somebody else who needed it more, then the world's needs would all be taken care of. It will work out for you though. I wish I had a little extra and could send it to you and to Dexter, but we just scape by. People give things to us, and it helps. But then I feel bad because I know that we have more than a lot of people.

<font color=orange>"Never forget: 2 + 2 = 5 for extremely large values of 2."</font color=orange>

[wisewoman]

It's funny, the people to whom I gave the lap tops acted like they got gold, I feel good doing it but then I think I would make a rotten business woman. I spoke with hubby about the credit card call, he offered to call them. The reality is that we need to amke more money. It's dumb but I will say that the money stuff has been a big part of my stress and depression. Just another part of the load that I am carrying. I tried to do my fiber art today, had a time getting back into it. Repairing something for a friend and then looking at the merchandise I have and wishing I could Market. I enjoy my art I love to teach it and I do craft fairs in the fall but the reality is I lose money on that too. Has anyone ever felt tha their depression made them clumsy and unable to do simple tasks? I feel like I don't even know if I am walking straiht sometimes. It's the weirdest feeling. Well,you guys are great and I surely appreciate the support.

[Rapunzel]

You're a fiber artist too! So am I! I tried to make a business of it, but couldn't find enough motivation to produce enough stuff to sell, especially when I know I'm not even going to make minimum wage. I'd rather give the things I make to people I care about. I have animals too, and I try to sell some, but I care more about that they go to good homes, and then people want to buy animals and they say, but I don't have all the money - can I make payments? And I say sure, and they don't, so I sell $2000 of animals and get $50 for them, and I let them take them because it would cost me more to feed them. The kicker is when I adversise and someone answers, and then their truck breaks down, so not only do they not have the money, but they would like me to deliver the animals to them usually 6 hours away, and they are doing me a favor because they will give my animals a good home! I'm not a very effective businesswoman either, I'm afraid. Oh, and teaching classes - people ask me to teach a class, and I order materials, and then not enough people take the class to cover what I spent. Yup. I guess I need to look for a more traditional employment situation. You might be interested in my weblog - mostly about the fiber arts, but also about life in general. <A target="_blank" HREF=http://ddiamond.net>http://ddiamond.net</A>

<font color=orange>"Never forget: 2 + 2 = 5 for extremely large values of 2."</font color=orange>

[wisewoman]

Thanks, sounds like we have a lot in common. I do not sell animals but I do foster care and placement for adoption. I'll check out your site. I also make things and give them away. At least I know they give joy that way.
Well, I lied kinda, I do raise sheep sometimes to sell, mostly to give to my friend who has my wool washed and carded for me. I also do raise and sell English Angoras, none this year and probably won't. I trade my fiber for more carded wool. I am not a knitter. I make things out of felted wool. Lots of it. It's fun, work, and a lot of investment.