[RJ42]

Through my entire adult life, and I'm sure others have too, I've only been good enough to help women. I don't see myself as perfect, but I consider myself a good person. I see so many women saying "where are the kind, honest, respectful, and responsible guys at?" This puzzles me because I have those qualities and then some.
It has become inherently obvious that my looks and the fact I cannot work anymore are the real reasons why I'm a tool to women and not relationship material. I'm not saying all women are bad, I'm just referring to the ones I encounter.
I know my looks are slightly below average and that's okay. I've worked 23 out of the 42 years I've been alive. To me, disabled doesn't mean lazy, dependent or a mooch. It just means hindered. I don't look for support in any way. I am independent, strong willed and do everything myself.
It is pretty sad to know first hand how much selfish people use a selfless person so much, in both genders.
I think perhaps it would be best to stay to myself. The hurt would stop and I've been used to being alone for so long. We as hurt people can change ourselves for the better. However, it doesn't help when other people get worse. It kind of feels like bein a big hearted fish swimming in an ocean of hungry sharks. The bad part is, this fish is growing so tired inside from trying just to survive each day, wondering when the time will come when he cam stop swimming and finally discover peace. I will never quit swimming, I only long for my time of swimming to be done.

[Skeezyks]

Hello RJ42: Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I send hugs your way with the hope that you might soon find safe harbor...

[RJ42]

Thank you Seezyks. I'm just so darned tired. If I don't say something sometimes, I can honestly feel the tiredness spreading inside. I don't like to bother people on here being everyone has their own lives. I just don't have anyone else to voice my feelings to.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by RJ42

Thank you Seezyks. I'm just so darned tired. If I don't say something sometimes, I can honestly feel the tiredness spreading inside. I don't like to bother people on here being everyone has their own lives. I just don't have anyone else to voice my feelings to.

You're not a bother here. Ever. If you need to get things off your chest, this is the place because we're all here for each other. If you don't want a thread, feel free to message me. You can vent to me any day.

I am sorry it hurts so much. There have been people (one male and one female) who have gone through terrible divorces (in both cases, their spouse left them) in my family. It can be really hard to trust after this has happened to you. I am sorry it happened to you.
I am sure your looks are just fine!! We lose our "looks" as we age anyways. I hope you find someone who treats you better. You deserve it!

[RJ42]

Thanks everyone.