So I have been in the hospital since Thursday after admitting to the crisis team I couldn't keep myself safe and agreeing this might be best for me right now. I saw the consultant on Friday morning who basically just said I shouldn't be here and they will discharge me on Monday.

So I have been here for 4 days and had zero treatment. Haven't been started on any meds. Nothing.

And if anything I am now in a worse frame of mind than I was before I got here.

Possible trigger:

I am literally obsessing about suicide now, and just waiting to be let home so I can act on this

I really tried to do the right thing. And it backfired. I'm at a loss and I just don't see the point in trying anymore.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by HalloweenSkye

I really tried to do the right thing. And it backfired.

Yes, you followed the counsel many receive when they find themselves in a similar state. I deeply regret the expected help did not materialize.

Did the consultant you saw on Friday give you a reason for thinking you should not be there?

She just said that I need therapy which they can't offer me here. I had at least hoped to have started on meds to head towards some kind of stability so I was moving in the right direction. They normally at least do that....

[Aardwolf]

Thats shocking.. I've never encountered a healthcare system as broken as it is here in the UK..

It's good that you tried to do the right thing. That is a step in the right direction. It didn't get the result you wanted, but it's the intention you had which is important !

[Skeezyks]

[MtnTime2896]

Is there any you can advocate and protest their decision? I don't know much about health care in the UK, but when I was in the hospital a patient was about to be discharged and then she protested it so they had to keep her.

I just don't know if it's worth it. They don't actually care and I'm just wasting their time and filling a bed that could be used for someone who needs it more.

3.5 hours until my discharge meeting...

(i used to have that twenty one pilots line as my aignature some time ago...good song! )

[MtnTime2896]

You do need that bed and some actual care. You shouldn't be considered a waste of time by anyone. You matter as much as the next guy no matter the diagnoses.
Have you talked to them about maybe and intense outpatient program that could be available?

(Thanks, yeah that line is really fitting for me right now; it is a really good song.)

Intensive outpatient isn't really a thing here, or I have never come across it anyway. There are various different groups focused around personality disorders, I tried one before but it didn't work out. Plus I have now ditched my PD diagnosis so chances are they aren't even an option anymore. Even when I did have the diagnosis I was told I didn't meet the criteria for one of the groups.

I grateful for NHS for the free healthcare but it really is flawed when it comes to mental health. There is just not enough funding.

[MtnTime2896]

I'm sorry about that. I can't believe mental health is even worse off in the UK than the state I live in, in the US. Forums like this and a little therapy seem to be the only resources outside of drugging up the modern world. I was really hoping that this would work out for you and I'm sorry it let you down and even made it worse.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by ACQPL

Thats shocking.. I've never encountered a healthcare system as broken as it is here in the UK..

It's good that you tried to do the right thing. That is a step in the right direction. It didn't get the result you wanted, but it's the intention you had which is important !

I am in full agreement

This is why I'm not interested in being "helped" by this system.. They do the opposite more often than not, and blame the "patient". It's sad

Can the GP prescribe meds, and can you look for a new therapist?

My GP won't touch my meds because I'm under the mental health team. I have to wait for an opening with the psychiatrist, however long that might be.

At this point I have just given up now. I'm not reaching out anymore. It does more harm than good. I feel so defeated and hopeless. And stupid. Why on earth did I think that they would actually help me?

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by HalloweenSkye

Why on earth did I think that they would actually help me?

Because they're suppose to help us when nothing else can; we're told that by a society that really doesn't seem to care; it's just their version of a band-aid. Too bad they drenched that band-aid in sulfuric acid. It's not stupid to reach out for help, it's human.