Someone please talk to me...

Please? I think I'm entering a bad depressive episode. I've cried twice today, the last time just a few minutes ago. I feel this heavy feeling of sadness like somebody has died. It has nothing to do with the recent election.

Nobody in my life will talk to me, which is what I need most right now. I feel so damn alone. I've barely eaten today because it feels useless to get up and drag myself to the kitchen to make something to eat, although we have plenty of food.

I'm not going to call a hotline because I'm not in crisis at the moment, so please don't suggest that. Thanks.

I just want to let you know that you're not alone. There are many people here who are willing to listen, including myself.

Hello, Ennui. When was the last time you had similar feelings? What happened then?

Do you think you could eat something? (Feel free to ignore all the questions.)

You are not alone. We are here for you to talk to.

Thank you everyone who has responded so quickly. I really didn't expect this much of a response...

SvanThor, Rohaq, QueenCopper... I really do appreciate all of you taking the time to reply to me. Rohaq, the last time I had feelings of despair this deep and intense was when I was dumped by my first boyfriend a little over 5 months ago, which sent me into a deep depression that I eventually came out of. I don't have a clear reason for this time though, but the feelings are intense. I know I'm missing a friend who is not responding to my messages on Facebook. I think I could eat something if I could actually get up, but there is not much incentive to because I don't feel painfully hungry and I'm trying to lose weight anyway. But I know I haven't eaten enough.

Okay, my friend is at her dad's which explains why she's not online, because he doesn't have wifi. But why didn't she tell me she was going to her dad's...

Sending lots of hugs your way

Thank you Jace

Hi my friend 😙. I'm glad you reached out to us! Lovely. I'm here if you want to talk. 👍

Hopeoffreedom, thank you so much! I'm really overwhelmed (in a good way!) with all the positivity and support I have recieved here tonight.

I finally am eating something, salsa with ranch flavored Wheat Thins. Not enough to make up for a day of not eating, but it will do. It actually took having to get up to use the bathroom for me to do it. My lack of hunger today has been shocking, usually I get sick with hunger.

Good news is that I'm feeling less intensely now... I'm hoping that was only a bout, not the beginnings of a full-on episode. It certainly helps to be surrounded by all of this support. Thank you all!

ennui sometimes I get flooded with opposites when I am depressed too... i.e. periods of hunger then long periods with no appetite. Sometimes insomnia sometimes sleep all day and all night. Sometimes it is tough riding the waves as they directly interfere with seeking relief. I've lost about 45 pounds since December just from lack of appetite.

Dexter; I don't usually have such extremes. I'm more apt to sleep and eat a lot than not much at all. However, I've been noticing a lack of appetite lately and today's been an extreme of that for me. I finally forced myself to eat but didn't much enjoy it. I've also been sleeping up to 12 hours a night now even when I'm not overly tired, and then I feel tired all day. :/ It's very hard to get anything done that way, I may have to set an alarm although I don't have any obligations or places to go.

I have similar symptoms as well, with a strong desire to just simply sleep, and I feel tired throughout the day. I find that two doses of caffeine tend to help (large coffee in the morning, high caffeine soda in afternoon) helps a little to get me through the day.

BrownHat, I know exactly what you mean. I just started drinking coffee this past year and a half, and it's the only thing that gets me awake in the morning. If I didn't have coffee I probably would spend much of my life half-asleep.

I'm here. Message anytime.

Hope you're feeling better, you're not alone.

Thank you sans and BipolarOne. Unfortunately I'm doing very badly again. I think my friend's fiance might be keeping her from talking to me. I don't think she's really at her dad's, or she would have told me herself beforehand, and she'd want to see me while she's here in town. It's been three days.

Just wanted to send you another hug. I hate it when sadness overwhelms me.

Thank you Yours_Truly and Fuzzy