seeking help

I'm 17 rn and cannot visit a psychologist/psychiatrist on my own, I need to be with my parent because of the law.

I feel like killing myself for months, but I see the possible consequences so on everyday basis I'm controlling this desire... It would be such inconvience for everyone in my local environment and I'm scared I would fail.
However, I have difficulty holding back an urge when something bad happens.

The thing is, I'd like to seek professional advice.
Actually, I don't know if I'm mentally ill, even though I feel so (but I cannot go to psychologist without my parents knowing about it).

I took the Sanity Score Test and it showed that I have 8 serious and 5 minor. One of my "serious concerns" are depression, dissociation and low self-esteem. I don't know what to think about it.

Long time ago I decided that I'll go to professional doctor once I'll be 18, but now I think it would be dangerous for me to wait. I want to get successful help, but at the same time I want to stay anonymous with my thoughts.

I want to end being suicidal - I have things that I live for but I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself one day.

Is there any website providing reliable screening (or better be diagnoses) for teenagers?
I'm just so tired of uncertainty.

Why can't your parents know about what you're going through? If they love you, they'll want to know so that they can take you to a professional and get help.

At the same time, I understand keeping something like this from parents for various reasons. This site is a pretty good one and can offer some information. I'm not sure where you live, but in the states (like the one I live in) the patient confidentiality kicks in at thirteen. So, even if your parents know you see one because they sign the intake form, your doctor can't share your information with them (with exceptions that are also there for adults). If you go to school, there's a counselor there who could assist you with this search and is also bound by confidentiality.

In my country parents know everything about you until you hit 18 so that's the reason behind my post. Anyway, thank you for you reply!

Are there any confidential groups for teenagers.

I'm not aware of any, guess I'll stay here on PC for a while.