[RJ42]

Well, here I am again, alone on the holidays again. It is getting easier as years go by, but it still sucks. It would be nice to see my daughters. I don't understand what I did to make their mother hate me so badly, to say horrible untruths to my daughters about me.

She is by far the 2nd most horrible person in this world, in my book. She told me she wanted a divorce 2 days after my great grandmother died, filed a false CPS case against me (which I didn't know till 14 years later), then had her lawyer schedule the divorce hearing on my birthday. I don't think I'm a bad person. But what kind of mother turns her children against their father. I was hospitalized for a heart attack and my daughters didn't come see me. Then I was hospitalized for 4 days this year for my acute appendix that was leaking, almost killed me, and my daughters didn't come again.

It tears me apart, even more around the holidays, not to see my daughters. I wish I knew why I'm punished so much, for most of my life. My daughters are all I have, and care about, in this world. I would give anything to see them again. It has been 6 painful and empty years without them.

She sounds evil to keep your daughters away. I am thinking of you. I can't imagine anything more painful than this situation.
I will admit to you that my H can be very resolute about doing things "his way" and there have been times when I have been paranoid about his motives due to my mental condition. When I would get paranoid that he wouldn't agree, I would hide things from him (like buying groceries for our children). Medications and going to a T has helped me with this. I don't know if your spouse has a mental issue but am just trying to give you a real example showing how marriages can get so messed up.
I really am sorry you are not seeing your kids. This is so messed up.

[RJ42]

Thanks, I can understand your dilemma as well. I've been divorced for a while now. I've been flying solo for over 6 years. I hope your holidays are enjoyable.

[MtnTime2896]

Your ex sounds like a real ******. I don't understand the train of thought that allows someone to rid their kids from one of their parents. My dad did that to me a lot growing up. I hated my mother for many years. Then I found out the truth over time and felt so bad for what I believed. It really does a number on a kid and their parent. I'm sorry that this has happened to you.

[RJ42]

Thanks, I'm holding on to hope they will come see me some day.

[LadyShadow]

Hugs to you on this holiday season. I suggest a marathon of different shows as the holidays go by, you won't even miss them. I mean I have my family, and I still feel alone. Weird how life goes. Everyone is independent in my house, and are all doing their "own thing" where I don't have anything. So it is what it is. I will be binge watching something, or reading. No big deal for me.

But for whatever its worth I think you're a great father for loving your daughters so much.

[RJ42]

Thank you. I mostly just binge read. Can't afford cable or satellite service. So, I do what I can to keep my mind occupied.