Home Menu

Menu


Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #1  
Old Jan 03, 2017, 09:40 PM
ABC1357 ABC1357 is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Nov 2016
Location: U.S.
Posts: 142
I feel stuck. It's not because I want to. Don't ask me why I can't let it go. I want to, and I'm making every effort.

I feel suicidal. It's not because I want to die, but just want to escape from the pain which never stops. It looks only exit from the dark tunnel.

I feel anxious. Don't call me stupid for that. I want to act as everyone do. Just I can't.

I never want to be anxious or depressed. It's same as not one want to get flu when life is already hard and busy. I am trying to get out of it, but there's always another challenge. It's not because I'm lazy.

I'm working, smiling, but I'm not OK. I just don't know how to ask help.
Hugs from:
Fuzzybear, MtnTime2896

advertisement
  #2  
Old Jan 03, 2017, 09:41 PM
JustJace2u's Avatar
JustJace2u JustJace2u is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: May 2016
Location: Chicago
Posts: 1,928
Do you have a therapist or psychiatrist?
__________________
Dx: BP2 and MDD

Current meds: 100mg Wellbutrin; 200mg Lamictal; 400mg Seroquel at night; Xanax 1mg/PRN; 100mg/PRN Trazodone at night for insomnia
Diagnosed in May 2016


  #3  
Old Jan 03, 2017, 09:44 PM
ABC1357 ABC1357 is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Nov 2016
Location: U.S.
Posts: 142
Quote:
Originally Posted by JustJace2u View Post
Do you have a therapist or psychiatrist?
I recently started working with therapist. I'm working on it, I just feel overwhelmed now and wanted to express my feeling to someone...
  #4  
Old Jan 03, 2017, 10:42 PM
MommaD MommaD is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Nov 2016
Location: Usa
Posts: 378
I hear you. Sometimes you just have to say what you're feeling. No one who struggles with mental illness is lazy or stupid! Carrie Fisher (who had bipolar) said if you're struggling with this you should be proud of yourself not ashamed. You're one of the most courageous people around and you deserve a medal for dealing with this.
She said it better, but the sentiment is the same.
You are not stupid. You are not lazy. You are brave beyond belief even though you may not feel like it right now.
Please reach out for help in real life. You deserve to feel better.
Sending you healing thoughts
Thanks for this!
ABC1357
  #5  
Old Jan 04, 2017, 04:42 PM
Fuzzybear's Avatar
Fuzzybear Fuzzybear is offline
Wisest Elder Ever
 
Member Since: Nov 2002
Location: Cave.
Posts: 96,637
It's brave to work with a therapist... you're certainly not lazy or stupid

"The pain which never stops" - those of us who can relate to this are brave. (Beyond belief)
__________________
Thanks for this!
ABC1357
  #6  
Old Jan 04, 2017, 10:10 PM
Sunlaien Sunlaien is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Jan 2017
Location: South
Posts: 33
Sometimes being able to smile and put on a front on the outside makes it that much harder. I really commend you for being strong enough to do that. But I also know how difficult that can be. Because you can't open up to those people you act so strong in front of.

It sometimes feels like a double life. Someone told me today I needed to be "normal" again, and I laughed because the real me is the depressed me. The front they see is just an act.

I understand and I am so sorry you feel this way. If you ever need to talk to anyone, I'm here to listen.

I'm glad you're seeing a therapist. That can help. Just saying the words can bring a sense of release. And talking to people here. You don't need to put on that smile here. You're among friends.
  #7  
Old Jan 05, 2017, 02:32 AM
MtnTime2896's Avatar
MtnTime2896 MtnTime2896 is offline
Chat Moderator
 
Member Since: Feb 2016
Location: Doing donuts in the parking lot
Posts: 4,282
I think everyone here said what I would tell you. You're brave and what you're dealing with right now; well, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I'm proud of you for working on getting better with a therapist; I'm also happy that you reached out to us here with this thread. It shows you're truly wanting to get better. That desire will help drive you through this hell. We'll be here along the way.
__________________
"Give him his freedom and he'll remember his humanity."
Thanks for this!
ABC1357
Reply
Views: 590

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.




All times are GMT -5. The time now is 05:22 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.