[Humpty Dumpty]

I know I need help, but I just can't do it. Telling me to goto a dr about this is like telling someone with an extreme fear of spiders that in order to survive they must work with and handle spiders on a daily basis. The last time I tried to goto a dr about this it was debilitating and I could not go. So how am I supposed to get the help I need when I can't go get the help I need?

[Sesiley]

That's the thing... it can get worse...

When you've finally had enough with the struggle..you will go. I mean, it might have to start out in the hospital, but you gotta start somewhere..

Hang in there...there really is nothing to fear but the fear you feel...and when you finally go you won't believe why it took you so long

Hang in there

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by Sesiley

That's the thing... it can get worse...

When you've finally had enough with the struggle..you will go. I mean, it might have to start out in the hospital, but you gotta start somewhere..

Yeah you're right it can get worse. I could end up in the hospital. Been there done that. Never doing it again.

[MtnTime2896]

Honestly, after dealing with the last therapist before the one I have now, I really didn't feel like I could go see another one. That woman really betrayed my trust and was also not qualified enough to handle me, let alone help. At the end of her sessions I always felt as though I'd become more suicidal than when I went in. In fact, not a little over a month seeing her, I ended up in the hospital because I "attempted" (I think the nurse was over exaggerating, along with my counselor there, but I'm also really numbed out in regards to my past). I didn't go back to therapy for a long time, until I was recommended my current T by a friend who'd gone through similar issues.

I'm not saying this to invalidate your fear. To be honest, I don't have an answer as how to help your situation. So many people use therapy and such, but there are alternative medicines. Here in my state, I actually find myself more attached to Navajo methods to deal with and handle my depression. Thing is, it turns out that there's a lot more wrong with me other than that, so I can't only rely on cleansings, that and they cost a bit. I'm not sure how open you are to that sort of thing. I'm not sure I've ever asked.

[MommaD]

Humpty Dumpty I just read your "why I don't trust doctors" post and I can sure understand why! You have not been treated with dignity and compassion by the medical profession and I can see why you don't want to be involved with them in any way. But that sure limits your options for getting help. The only ones I see are:
1) DIY (books, online meditations, dvds on dealing with depression, researching herbal and organic treatments like vitamin D, SAM E, light therapy, Emotional Freedom Technique, etc). It's a hard road to walk
2) alternative medicine (holistic practitioners who are not medical doctors but people who offer things like Traditional Chinese Medicine, Healing Touch, Native American therapies
3) rely on calling crisis hotlines/chats frequently
Or
4) do nothing. But I think you know where that leads

Sending healing thoughts to you in the hopes you find your way to a better day

[ABC1357]

I started with online counseling. I could not call to doctor or therapist, but I could sign up online and write my concern. I could stay totally anonymous and I could switch therapist as many times as I needed, that also helped. My online therapist helped me to reach out for therapist and doctor.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by ABC1357

I started with online counseling. I could not call to doctor or therapist, but I could sign up online and write my concern. I could stay totally anonymous and I could switch therapist as many times as I needed, that also helped. My online therapist helped me to reach out for therapist and doctor.

That is a very interesting concept. Is that only in your country or is it just a general Web service? What country are you in?

[ABC1357]

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

That is a very interesting concept. Is that only in your country or is it just a general Web service? What country are you in?

I think there are a lot of web-based counseling now, and that does not really matter which country you are in to use these service, as long as you have credit card. I have tried Betterhelp and 7 cup of tea. I believe both based in the U.S. I believe there are a lot more, and I found some therapist provide skype counseling. I found their ads when I was googling suicide method, and just signed up for free trial. I'm glad I did. I stayed there until I could find regular therapist. They were not like real therapy, but that did help me to reach out for help.

[MommaD]

I've used 7 cups as well. Worth a look

[Sunlaien]

I also agree with online counseling. I too have had very poor luck with doctors and therapists. I used TalkSpace (an online private messaging service with certified counselors) and it really helped. It was a little pricey but it was unlimited messaging so the first few months I talked to my therapist every day. It made a huge difference for me.

[MickeyCheeky]

Online counseling looks like a useful suggestion.. I also suggest books, videos, and everything that can help, even if it's just by a little bit. Everything can help Take care of yourself. You deserve to feel better

[Mansi]

Thanks for info of online counselling, i m paranoid to reach hospitals and see a doc...