[Myelin Sheath]

Most of the time I wish my life could just end. I don't like life very much, and I have problems which I know will never go away. No one likes me and I don't even like myself. There is an inherent disrespect most everyone has for me. I have no value and no reason to be alive.

I turn 26 tomorrow and I'm a loser. I'm not a loser because I've accomplished nothing (though I haven't), but because of my inherent characteristics and personality. I'm just all around a bad person. Nothing about me is likable or admirable. Hence, no one likes me.

I'm unequivocally convinced that I should work towards ending my life. I think it would be better for myself and everyone else if I did so. I don't want to get better and "give life a chance". I couldn't possibly hate life or myself more. I just want to end my existence and be gone.

[passionfruit3]

And its that same mentality that you have that is why your in your situation cause you try and predict things about your self which you have no evidence of and it makes you more depressed. Sometimes bad things happen to good people for a reason we may not like it but thats how change comes about so just wait you dont know what is at the end of. A rainbow

You have value because your human

[Jolisse]

That's what depression does to you, it makes you feel worthless and unlikable.
I feel the same about myself, but I realize it's my brain creating these thoughts.
I try to do one positive thing a day, that I can feel good about.
You are not a loser, you have mental illness that are creating these thoughts.

[pppp3]

Originally Posted by Myelin Sheath

Most of the time I wish my life could just end. I don't like life very much, and I have problems which I know will never go away. No one likes me and I don't even like myself. There is an inherent disrespect most everyone has for me. I have no value and no reason to be alive.

I turn 26 tomorrow and I'm a loser. I'm not a loser because I've accomplished nothing (though I haven't), but because of my inherent characteristics and personality. I'm just all around a bad person. Nothing about me is likable or admirable. Hence, no one likes me.

I'm unequivocally convinced that I should work towards ending my life. I think it would be better for myself and everyone else if I did so. I don't want to get better and "give life a chance". I couldn't possibly hate life or myself more. I just want to end my existence and be gone.

Although unlikely you'll see my post (weeks have gone by) I need/want to ask, If I or anybody wrote the exact same post, and you had to reply, what would you say or suggest for them to do, so they would stop hating themselves and life so much so that only death seemed like a desirable goal? There is no right answer, but please don't mention the usual obvious such as seeking therapist or professional help.
I'm just curious of what a person can do themselves, to change their goal of death to something else.
And if unfortunately the answer is "nothing", please let me know, anyway. Thanks- P.s. I know you said you were "unequivocally convinced" but I think death is not the type of decision anybody (sick or healthy) can be convinced about 100%.

[crimsoncat]

someone once said to me when I was feeling very much like this ,somewhere deep down inside of you is a little bit of you that wants to live and get better why else are you reaching out? that is the bit in us all that we must nurture .

[Fuzzybear]

[MickeyCheeky]

You're not a loser. It's just your depression that is lying.. please don't end your life. You can get better. Have you thought about seeking for professional help? We'll be here for you anytime you want to vent

[simplylife]

I'm feeling really bad myself. I think I know how you feel. Let's hang in there. Things will get better. If we stop today, we may miss the really cool things that we can experience some years from now, some months from now. If you're like me and have no one to talk to, this forum and myself can help. Please feel free to message me.

[Hobbit House]

Depression is like that.. Everything you think and feel is just a reminder that your mind is playing tricks on you. Depression is a deep dark hole that may feel impossible for you to climb out of.It can be done! You can do it... it's not always easy, in fact it's difficult. That's what the psychiatrist and therapist and the meds are there to help. We are here to help! Let us help.