I first want to say, I'm unsure of whether the beast is destroying my friends and family around me, or its me mind controled by the beast. The beast is the depression. For about a year now, I've had EXTREMELY difficult social anxiety. The friends I make whom are so supportive are pushed away. The pain in this is unbareable, I have several frriends here on PC I feel I'm pushing them away and I dont know why??

I want to apologize to you, please don't listen to me, stay with me, stay please!! This hurdle will be over...It won't last forever. I seem to take advice in a bad away at times, I don't relise the LOVE and compassion around me. I dunno what to say,..its my doing..but I don't know why I am doing it...am I scared?...am I brainwashed that the world hates me?...I don't know..but something...that something is the beast..he's changeing my thoughts....or am I making excuses is it the real me doing this?....

I feel like a horrible person for posting this......I'm so..pathetic and selfish...GOD SHOW ME WHAT I HAVE! Let me know they love me,..and don't let me push them away!...Bless you all...Stay with me.

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((((moonkin))))

I hear you and you are not alone here. Depression is the beast and the beast does not give up easily nor does it tell us the truth. I know this and I am dealing with this same beast you speak of. It has no respect of person, it does not care who it invades, nor does it ask you first off if it can come.

Everyday we wake up, we look this beast in the eye. We can choose to give in to this beast or we can choose to stand up and fight for ourself. I see you fighting as each time you come here and post, you are reaching out dispite what this beast would have you do.

I,like you,have to fight with each post and each time I chance to open my heart here. Depression would have us hide away and close up and feel no one is there, when in reality, it is not others that walk away but ourself.

I know how at times it seems others are so far away and nowhere near, but know that I am right there and listening. I care moonkin, and I know that feeling that the beast is somehow taking over.

Keep reaching and posting. We are here to hold you up when it seems like the beast is so strong that you cannot see. But with persistance and love the beast will not win. Together we can push through this darkness and come out in the light.

Know you are cared for and supported. Each time you post, you are taking a step and reaching through the beast. I am reaching with you. Thank you for posting and for giving me the chance to reach back. I care moonkin, and you are my friend always.

camilionwords1truth

[MyBestKids2]

(((((((dustin)))))

we understand and would never hate you!!!


Dee

i won't leave you dustin

THANK YOU ALL SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!

Wow...((((HUGS TO ALL)))

I'm gonna keep rushing headlong into the beast! I won't stop I care for you all!

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((Dustin))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I care for you very much. Please don't give in to the depression.

BB

[drummergrl]

See Dustin???
YOu have so much support here at PC that you don't take
the time to believe it!!! There's so much more you can do when you believe in yourself. We all have that same beast
inside us that wants us to fail. The difference is in letting him, or stopping him!!! It's sometimes an uphill battle with no end in sight, then someone comes along and gives
us a tow and boom!, we're right at the top where we should be!!!
There's nothing you can't do if you put your mind to it. Just
let it happen.

We'll hang in there with ya. Who knows, maybe you'll end up catching one of us????? hahahahaa....................

[Christina86]

(((((Dustin))))))))))))

If it helps any, I'm the kind of person who pushes people away as well. Definetely something that is hard to stop, but it is possible!

Sorry you're feeling so rotten right now - if I can do anything, let me know. Being a younger person with depression SUCKS. (I'm 21... I consider that still young )

Take care of yourself.