a horrible person

thiss makes me ahorrible person but i cant help it that they moved to new orleans last years shes with some man and i dont know who or what there up to but saw pictures and so i WANTED for them to be blown away from thr hurricane ok? I wish it but she wasnt. . .but i thought it was me because katrina was one of the names they called me by..so i stay away from here while evryone prays for everybody because i was thinking the opposite , i was feeling evil thoughts..im sorry for the disrespect

(((((((((((((((((kathyanita)))))))))))))) understand totally what you are saying and have done similar. you are not evil at all. please take care and write more. you are not a horrible person. i care and i hear what you are saying.

thank you its one worst fear to think you inherit the evil and you become one yourselff so this is my cofession of bad thoghts. .
iKNOW thoghts dont cause things I do KNOW this , in most of my mind

yes, so understand. we are not our mothers even though we feel we are at times. you didnt inherit evil and you wont become like them. i very much relate to what you are saying.

its whats splittin my brain too that I have people family that I found and reunited theyre old and theres in Missisippi and also alabama so I have that to prayfor and theyre all ok but the i have the split where its the name and rooting for the disaster you know, and the impossible conscience about reconciling to opposite ways of thinking and allowing them all to make noise. . that wears you out too

{{{{ kathyanita }}}}

You are NOT bad or evil for having these thoughts.

You are a kind and gentle soul who I am proud to call my friend.

These feelings you are having over "that woman" and the hurricane, are all perfectly normal, hon. It's part of being human. You have a right to them.

I feel them towards her too.

She hurt a good friend of mine.

Petunia

(((((kathyanita))))))

You are NOT a horrible person!

Wantsto. . .
Petunia
Gem. . . thank you for the kind caring. . . I'm holding that to me. . .

(((((((((((((((((((((ka)))))))))))))))))))))))))

i have to tell you that i just think you're wonderful. i couldn't feel you were bad for nothing.

you're so kind and understanding with me. you care and show it...no pretense. thank you for that.

kd

KD
I have enormous respect for you and how you get through your struggles and allow others to offer help , I copy your example at times. . .so thank you too. . .

((((((((((((KA))))))))))))

a mutual respect begins many WONDERFUL friendships.

i'm very glad to know you.

kd

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the split where its the name and rooting for the disaster you know, and the impossible conscience about reconciling to opposite ways of thinking and allowing them all to make noise. . that wears you out too

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oh goodness is it ever exhausting to deal with such strife within one's own head.

there is nothing horrible about you ka. what you express sounds very normal for anyone who survived as you had to survive. you're allowed to have the thoughts you have without guilt.

(((a very nonhorrible KA)))
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Zh ,
as ALWAYS thank you for your response. . . its quieter now. . .