[so_punk_rock]

I sometimes think I should go back but I've been avoiding it. I haven't been taking very good care of myself. I was hospitalized months ago and was fine for a couple weeks. I started drinking again and I ran out of medication. It was very easy to slip back into old patterns and habits of isolating myself. I have been thinking about suicide off and on for months and I cut myself again the other day. My mom told me not to go but I feel really unstable. I'm not sure If I should go because sometimes the suicidal thoughts go away. I just know that I don't feel very well.

[whisperingskye]

Are you able to try and get stable without resorting to hospital? Do you see a therapist? Have a doctor? Sorry you are not feeling well. I'm kind of in a similar place right now. I'm trying to get a handle on it before it gets so bad I end up in hospital again.

[MickeyCheeky]

Can't you try to be more consistent with your self-care? I know it's hard, but if you're able to, you wouldn't need to resort to hospitalization

[mmiikkeeyy]

I have been in your shoes before, and always ended up in the hospital.

YES< YES< YES!!! You need to be hospitalized so people can help you.
I was an alcoholic for 16 years, I have bi-polar, shitzo-affective, gad, panic disorder, and social anxiety disorder.

You come first above all no matter what your Mom thinks.

I want to see you safe and get the help you need fast. I am only saying this because I was in your shoes, and tried to take my own life. I almost died! It is not worth it, you are better than this! You can do it, we are much stronger people yet when we need help, we need to ask for it.

[so_punk_rock]

Originally Posted by whisperingskye

Are you able to try and get stable without resorting to hospital? Do you see a therapist? Have a doctor? Sorry you are not feeling well. I'm kind of in a similar place right now. I'm trying to get a handle on it before it gets so bad I end up in hospital again.

I had an appointment at a mental health treatment center for an evaluation but I didn't go. I tend to not keep up with appointments and miss them when I am depressed. When I'm off my meds I usually don't go anywhere, I just stay in my room. I haven't had a therapist in a while.

[Rose76]

When you went to the hospital last time, it resulted in you being "fine for a couple weeks." So that really didn't do you much good.

Find out if there is a "partial hospitalization program" connected with that hospital you were in. A program like that might actually do you more good.

I've heard of AA groups called "double trouble" for persons with both mental health issues and a drinking problem. You might try taking in one of those meetings.

Where are you getting the money from to buy the alcohol?

Is living with your mother just not working out? I realize you may not have any alternative that seems reasonable, but maybe your home situation is feeding into the problem. Sometimes getting hospitalized seems like a way of escaping a living situation that is not going well. But, as you know, they only keep you so long.

I'm sorry you feel so down. In that state of mind, it is hard to do what you need to do.

[Clara22]

I totally agree with Rose. I wish you the best