[cryingontheinside]

If one more person tells me to help myself I'm going to do something crazy !!!!!! ( not meaning anyone on PC but people in real ) .
As soon as I wake up every morning all I think about is how to escape my life .
My social worker thinks by telling me its a lovely sunny day that I will want to go out and get back to normal just like that . what is wrong with these people !!!!!!!
I should be in hospital but they won't take me in until I do something real crazy .
I said I can't go out and she said I can because there is nothing physically wrong with me .
She makes me angry .
She said she might not be able to work with me anymore because I'm not helping myself .
This is the most stupid thing I have ever heard .
I guess the ones who are more sick get abandoned and left alone to suffer . what a stupid world. What a stupid system .
Why am I still here? Why haven't I put an end to my pain yet?

[Fuzzybear]

I'm sorry hon I think you're maybe right, that the ones who are more sick over here sometimes get abandoned by the professionals.. it's very wrong.

I see you as a kind and gentle person who deserves so much more (I am too.. I sometimes get angry too )

Maybe we could set some very small goals, baby steps... I'm struggling badly too, don't want to be on this planet, don't often go out (I have physical stuff too which makes it very scary but the anxiety etc make the physical stuff even more scary )

I'm sorry, this wasn't meant to be about me.. I'm probably a very "bad" person

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I'm sorry hon I think you're maybe right, that the ones who are more sick over here sometimes get abandoned by the professionals.. it's very wrong.

I see you as a kind and gentle person who deserves so much more (I am too.. I sometimes get angry too )

Maybe we could set some very small goals, baby steps... I'm struggling badly too, don't want to be on this planet, don't often go out (I have physical stuff too which makes it very scary but the anxiety etc make the physical stuff even more scary )

I'm sorry, this wasn't meant to be about me.. I'm probably a very "bad" person

Hello fuzzy,

I am glad you talked about you too. I think we can relate to each other . I think we are probably in the same kind of emotional pain. You are a very kind and caring also . you don't deserve this . neither do I. Neither does anybody .
My anxiety is so high as well as my depression . I don't go anywhere and I let people down . I feel like a bad person .

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

Hello fuzzy,

I am glad you talked about you too. I think we can relate to each other . I think we are probably in the same kind of emotional pain. You are a very kind and caring also . you don't deserve this . neither do I. Neither does anybody .
My anxiety is so high as well as my depression . I don't go anywhere and I let people down . I feel like a bad person .

Thanks I have very high anxiety as well.. It makes life incredibly hard. You aren't a bad person (although I feel that about myself as well )

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

what is wrong with these people !!!!!!!

That's an excellent question, an important question. I'd like to know what's in their professional, preparatory curriculum.

I'm sorry, Cryingontheinside.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Rohag

That's an excellent question, an important question. I'd like to know what's in their professional, preparatory curriculum.

I'm sorry, Cryingontheinside.

Good post, you are so accurate Rohag.... I wish it wasn't so

(((( Cryingontheinside )))))

[Fuzzybear]

So many "strangers" here. I'm lost in the crowd. Wish I could disappear

(Not about anyone on pc)

((((( cryingontheinside ))))

[justxholdon]

You have every right to be angry.
It's not a feeling I allow myself to express but I've heard it can be very useful. Is there a way you can turn that anger towards something productive?
Can you tap that energy to do a small baby step of some sort that will make her count it in the 'helping yourself' category - even if accomplishing it is only to spite her?

I'm so sorry.

if allowed

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by justxholdon

You have every right to be angry.
It's not a feeling I allow myself to express but I've heard it can be very useful. Is there a way you can turn that anger towards something productive?
Can you tap that energy to do a small baby step of some sort that will make her count it in the 'helping yourself' category - even if accomplishing it is only to spite her?

I'm so sorry.

if allowed

This is a good post, I'll try to take this advice

((((( cryingontheinside )))) I hope she (social worker) is open to being more flexible - if not... well .. (open mouthed bear )

[Clara22]

This social worker should know better. I think she in an idiot. Sorry to be blunt. Sending you a hug

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Clara22

This social worker should know better. I think she in an idiot. Sorry to be blunt. Sending you a hug

Dear Clara,

You took the words out of my "muzzled bear's" mouth

I deliberately refrained and restrained my "bear" who feels pretty strongly about this social worker
(And some other irl uk professionals )

Respectful regards