[krzyk101]

Seems like with my depression, I just get so overwhelmed to the point of not wanting to care. Not the feeling of not wanting to care about people, the feeling of all of the small things that I seem to worry over that comes along with the depression.

I just have ups and downs in the degrees of depression, which leads to the anxiety increase over little things. I don't want to care about the dishes not being done every day. Seems every room of the apartment I walk into I see all kinds of flaws in housekeeping. One day it doesn't bother me at all, then other days I just get overwhelmed and wish I could just put the issues to the side, and not dwell on all of the inperfections of my life.

My T tells me how much progress I have made. That helps for a while, then it is back to being in here alone all the time. Getting so agitated and cussing houshold appliances, and things. I do not want to care about these little things yet the get all blown out of proportion in my mind.

Then thing even like making this post sends worry and anxiety through my mind as I have so much trouble expressing how I feel. Just one day I would like to not care and worry about the massive series of worries that insist on running through my mind causing feelings of distress.

Thanks for listening.

Best Wishes-
~KRIS~

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

[lost_lonely]

((((((((((((((krzykris101))))))))))))))

I'm there right now, I know just how you feel.

Best wishes, I know it's hard

[krzyk101]

Thank you (((Lost_Lonley))))

Sorry to hear you are going through this as well. Thanks for letting me know I am not alone in this. I do appreciate your reply. Take care- Chris

Best Wishes-
~KRIS~

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

[dexter]

I'm like a bouncing ball like that now kris

The racing anxiety becomes almost like another voice in my head and I want to climb under the bed. It cripples me from taking care of the very things I'm worried about.

Hope things get better just keep hanging in.

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--http://www.idexter.com

[krzyk101]

Thanks dave,

Can relate to wanting to climb under the bed. At times for me it is like my very being is just screaming go lay down. I can actually sit here and my mind and body are being drawn to lay down and hide under a dozen blankets.

Guess we just all got to hang in there. Take care, Chris

Best Wishes-
~KRIS~

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

[honeyblood]

*hugs* i can def relate. i too have so much that i worry about, and its seems like nonsense, but it feels uncontrolable sometimes. don't worry about expressing how you feel, you can always do that here. there are lots of people here that can relate and help you. *hugs* my best wishes

*~in my field of paper flowers, candy clouds a lullaby, i lie inside myself for hours, and watch my purple sky fly over me~*

[krzyk101]

Honeyblood,

Thank you for the ((((hugs)))) and support.
best wishes and (((hugs))) to you as well. Take care.

Best Wishes-
~KRIS~

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!