[LittleMouse]

The last couple of days have been horrible and I feel so sick and depressed inside. Having SI thoughts in the last few days but have not done anything yet. I just want to run away and hide somewhere but I can't get away from myself. I feel another bid depressed spell coming on and I don't know if I can manage another one. I just want this all to end but there is no end in sight. The last few days have been so bad and I feel like I've almost given up all hope of ever defeating this beast inside of me. No matter what I do it always comes back to get me again and I'm so tired of it all. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm heart sick! My stomach hurts, my heart hurts my brains hurt! Everything hurts but most of all my very soul hurts and wants an end to this nightmare.

[nowheretorun]

((((((((((((((littlemouse)))))))))))))

I haven't met you yet but hope its ok if I reply. Hang in there ok?

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((littlemouse))))

I hear you and I know what you are saying. I am sorry you are feeling this way. I understand thoughts of SI, but it only causes more pain. I am proud of you for not doing that to you. I can understand that feeling of wanting to run and hide. At times it can be so strong, yet wherever one hides or runs to, you are right there.

I know the tiredness of it all, but hold on dear. You are worth it and we are here to catch you and hold you up should you fall. You are cared about and loved. Keep holding on and reaching. We are listening. There is light after the darkness. And I stand there holding a light for you to find your way. Just know you are not alone, and I care. I send you love and prayers.

camilionwords1truth