Have entered the Great Depression phase once more... it will be months before I am able to figure a way to come out of it..if I am...

I am not sure if a depression is different for a DID person than a non DID person..

I have lost interest in everything.. TV... reading.. restoring my house.. well everything.. am now.. sleeping hours and hours..

My T.. and I came to ageement today.. I am not ready to receive his help.. so I am cutting my sessions.. there is no point in going.. sucidal thougths overwhem me.. and the only thing that I can think of is to get someone in next week to make my house spotless because I don't want to leave a mess for my son to sort thru...
and that is all.. that I am concerned about.. funny what goes thru your mind..

So... yes.. the depreesion is here to stay...Yazaa...

there isn't anything that anyone can say or do.. to help...

[wickedwings]

((((((((freewill))))))))))) so sorry..... my depression is stuck on me, too. has beeen for a very long time.

[kebsfroggy]

(((((((((( freewill )))))))))))

can't offer any sage advice.
just know that others are also on that same journey and right now I'm getting seasick.

my heart goes out to you.

[nowheretorun]

((((((((((((((freewill))))))))))))))

Your post piqued my interest. You mentioned depression and DID. I recall when it first hit me at 15. Suddenly I wasn't who I used to be, didn't know who I was, didn't know how long it would last, or how to get back to who I was before.

I mentioned to my step-mom that I did'nt know what to say to people after "hello" anymore. I think she tried helping.

I got myself in some trouble. Everyone wanted to know what was wrong. So did I. The inability to describe was the foremost symptom. I had won awards as a writer and singer in scholl but suddenly, nothing.

I saw my Dad for the first time since my depression ended a few weeks ago. I mentioned to him that I had been "lost". He said "some people never come out of that depression". It made me think how depression is the last stop before suicide. I thought I would die with depression, but naturally.

Thank God it is over.

[skittles]

freewill dont give up u know im here for u and always will be... much love to u .....

(((((freewill))))

I might not be able to say something ...or do something...to make it better....but I DO have hope...HOPE....I love ya freewill!

[Mouse_]

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My T.. and I came to ageement today.. I am not ready to receive his help.. so I am cutting my sessions.. . and the only thing that I can think of is to get someone in next week to make my house spotless because I don't want to leave a mess for my son to sort thru...

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It seems you are able to recieve some help, as your post states. You will allow someone to clean your home. I'd say its the depression wanting to stay that is saying you won't allow T to help...depression can be a safe and cozy place to be at times...

I'd screw the house and rather my insides recieve the help and tidying...then the depression is at least being worked on rather than left.

[Fuzzybear]

I can't offer advice but I feel for you and I hope for you (sometimes others hope and caring can be enough for a while (or another day) ? although it seems other times or the same time to be so woefully inadequate) Many here care for you and understand, and many more may not fully understand but still care as best as they know how. Writing posts is hard for me, I can't do it "properly" but I wanted you to know I care and I'm trying my best to show you that (((((((((((( freewill )))))))))))))

[splitimage]

(((freewill)))

I'm sorry that things seem so bleak right now. But don't give up on yourself. Depression is treatable I know. Even if you don't believe me now it can get better. Keep posting how you feel and let us support you until you feel ready to give therapy another try.

---splitimage