[TheOutlaw1989]

I am always depressed and angry at the same time. When I was nineteen, my parents, my older brother, younger sister, and I, moved from Gretna, LA, to Mandeville, LA. My dad and brother both had jobs waiting for them over here when we moved. My sister was just entering high school, and eventually adjusted, made friends, etc. I had nothing waiting for me over here. I was going to Southeastern Louisiana University (My parents decision.) 40mins away, driving there and back home, two-three days a week. They and myself couldn't afford a dorm/apartment near or on campus. Spent six years, not knowing what the hell I wanted to do. Graduated back in 2014 with a general studies degree that has proved to be worthless in getting me a good job (30k or more a year). I have been against the move from the beginning, and have spent the last nine years going against the grain, so to speak, hence my username, TheOutlaw1989. I was attending Delgado Community College back in 2007 and wanted to finish there. My parents wouldn't let me. So, present day, 27yrs old, live with my parents, always angry, always depressed, blame them all the time for plucking me from the life I had and was very happy with, to this hell hole, with an illogical driveway, fashion over function decor, two stupid dogs, stairs, thin walls, and a neighborhood association that literally rides around looking for things to complain about at their next group therapy session. Can't talk to my parents about this because they LOVE this place and see nothing wrong with any of this. So, we argue in circles. I just go through the motions of this miserable life. Only three positives are two friends and I do volunteer work whether or not I'm employed (Currently employed, but as you might of guessed, I hate my job too.)

[Skeezyks]

Hello Outlaw: I wish I knew what to tell you about this... I don't. I'm an older person now. But I've struggled with anger issues for many years... a lot (but not all) of it directed at myself. Part of what my anger issues involve, as it happens, is also a move my parents made with me many years ago; & the unforeseen trouble the move brought down upon me. (I'll spare you the details.) To this day, all these many decades later, I'm still angry about the whole thing, even though I know my parents could not have foreseen what was in store for me.

Anyway, the one thing I know, as a result of all of this is that repressed anger is corrosive. It can lead to long-term depression (as you already know), anxiety & learned helplessness. So I hope that in some way you can figure out a way to begin to dig yourself out of this dark place you now find yourself in. Hopefully being here on PC can be of some comfort & support. I wish you well...

[EndlessDark]

I wish I could help too, but I'm in a similar situation. I live with my parents too, only I don't have a job. I hate living here and want to get away but I can't, just living here is a trigger. When I was around 15 my family moved from Indiana where I had most of the rest of my family and lots of friends, to New York where I had nothing and it was the start of my depression. I've been trying to pull myself back up for around 15 years now after losing the only job I ever had, but it's been no use I can't seem to do it. My parents have just sat around and watched me rot away, so I don't really know what's left to try.

I really hope you can find your way out of this, I know just how miserable depression can be so I really hope you can beat this. It may not be much, but if you ever want to chat with anyone you can send me a message, I'm always looking for new people to talk to.

[Sunflower123]

Outlaw and Endless Dark: is a therapist to help you process these feelings or a life coach to start building small goals towards a better life possible? Wishing you both the best.

[EndlessDark]

Unfortunately for me, no. I haven't had a job or insurance in years, and my parents don't help so I just have no clue what to do about it. I keep wishing I could find someone locally that could somehow help, but with my anxiety I doubt that's possible.

[TheOutlaw1989]

Thank you all. Its been a busy week of birthdays and life. I appreciate the words of wisdom and how I can see I'm not the only one in this unfortunate situation.

Jennifer, I can't afford a therapist. Saw one for awhile, but I couldn't afford to continue seeing him. I appreciate your support. Trying to set goals, but I can't seem to focus. I have my moments where I can, but the knowledge of my situation tends to immobolize me. Like, it's overwhelming, the time table of possible escape and what is will take to shorten or meet that desired time table. I know I will be so much better of a person (perhaps just in my mind) if I move out.

So, Skeezyks, I suppose, with that being said, I am indeed experiencing the anxiety and learned helplessness that you mentioned. I hope to dig myself out of the hole one day and appreciate your support. Aside from the anger issues that you mentioned, it sounds like you eventually made it out of there and I congratulate you on that.

EndlessDark, I'm sorry that you are still right there with me. My dad took out a student loan on me and forgot about the damn thing. It took my credit score from a 740 two years ago, to a 567 today. I have had a total of five jobs. Problem is that you and I don't need jobs. We need careers. My mom and dad try to help me, but its not quite the help I need. "Get over it and get a job." doesn't quite do it for me. Not that they are that cold and blunt. They say it nicer, but thats the core of the lecture. I'll take you up on that messaging offer. I think we can help each other.