The Shadow World 2

I tried DuckDuck-ing and Googling anything about subconscious but everything surfed out so uninteresting. Mostly some new age boring stuff.

When I think of subconscious, or maybe dive into it, I see everything Lovecraftian, melted, symbolic, scary...

Do you maybe have any vision of subconscious?

I have to read and explore this more and hope to continue with this theme.

In my subconscious, there's a whole other world where the damaged me stays all the time. There's a lot to it, but I'll post a little every now and then.

Deep inside an impenetrable forest lies a beautiful meadow, full of wildflowers and butterflies. In this meadow lives a little red headed girl and her baby brother, Terry. They play all day long without a care in the world because they have Sheba (don't ask me where the name came from, the little girl named her), a mother wolf who protects them as though they are her own cubs. She protects them with a fierceness that only a wolf can achieve when protecting her young.

same here

I tried to imagine the entrance to my subconscious. It looks more like a downward spiraling stairway. And sometimes it cracks beneath. It was really my childhood phobia, I was afraid that stairway in my building could once collapse in my passing.

Its symbol is fish, stars, Dagon. Also related to my childhood, when I imagined that the sea is hiding unimaginable things. And also I imagined a city existing below my city, where beings like Dagon dwell.

Consciousness is the visible-aware part of the world. And subconscious or this underthing I imagine, is just below it, not being played out, sometimes piling-in the unwelcomed ideas, or everything that needs to be confronted with to realize that reality is just a layer of many realities...

...subconscious is also relative to the world you are facing. All these things here on PC are hidden, a subworld to the world I interact with everyday people. And there are also things hidden even from me, on god knows what level, that also have unconscious impact on my life. But all these worlds are true in their own level...

I see everything, including the subconscious, as being connected to everything else. Organisms have particles, particles have molecules, molecules have atoms, etc. and on down from there. We also have a universe made of dark and light matter, matter becomes stardust, stardust becomes planets, planets become solar systems, solar systems become stars, stars die and become stardust again.
The subconscious works the same way.

Strangely I never really thought on how stars are formed. Ignorance corrected.

Still my online search for subconscious came out very nothing.

Except the myth part. I tried "buried parts of psyche" keywords:
Death, Burial, and the Afterlife in Ancient Greece | Essay | Heilbrunn Timeline of Art History | The Metropolitan Museum of Art

In the Odyssey, Homer describes the Underworld, deep beneath the earth, where Hades, the brother of Zeus and Poseidon, and his wife, Persephone, reigned over countless drifting crowds of shadowy figures—the “shades” of all those who had died.

Just let me become stardust again. No underworld, hell, heaven, pergatory....it's all just myths and legends anyway.

When I die, I'm leaving my body to a medical school with the stipulation that the students dress me up like Minnie Pearl from Hee-Haw and put me in the Dean's office. *grin*

Even in death, I can find humor, but then I am a dark, dark person...

I'm sitting here looking out the back window, into the forest behind my house. It is early evening, and the sunshine is dappled over the leaves in a hodge-podge outside my window. Suddenly, the earth moves just right, and the sun shines down on the perfection of a large spider building a web amongst the leaves. I could see him moving back and forth, making his web, knowing full well that soon the fireflies will be out, and the spider will feast...

The meaning of spider in India is associated with Maya. The term Maya comes from the Sanskrit root "Ma" which means no form or limit. The term Maya describes the illusory nature of appearances. Spider association with Maya brings about the understanding that not all things are as they appear to be.

Spider Symbol Meaning - Symbolism of the spider

I must continue contemplating the subconscious. Something is missing between the layers, a guardian of the layers.

Is not the soul the Guardian of the Layers?

You know, my son calls me Ma...when he's not calling me Cheech. *stoned grin* I have no limit apparently when it comes to canabis, does that count, do you think?

Do you guys ever experience the glitch in real life? Like when you witness something really happen, but it's not or unknown.

Before I active in PC I ever read about this in an articles which now I forget the link and title.

Some times ago I find similar threads in reddit again: http://reddit.com/r/Glitch_in_the_Matrix
It makes me wonder if there any "player" mess with our minds. Or does the other dimension truly exist and somehow they cross the path? Or do our minds just playing tricks?

I do. I think it's just my mind playing tricks, but I like the idea of it being a glimpse into another dimension, far better.

Im not sure does it fall into glitch but I have constant synchronicities. The last one was dream and hallucination of Bowie standing at the crossroads in my street, and some other stuff. Just when I started writing about subconscious and ghosts.

this is the first part, and first attempt, on those writings:

HOW STARS ARE FORMED AND GHOSTS MADE

At the crossroads did the shadow appear, apparition, spectre, djinn, ghost. It was like a dream I could not recall in waking hours. So I imagined and imagined, over and over again, what the ghost wanted of me.

How stars are formed and ghosts made? Are they dead but dreaming? How long will I search for the will of this apparition?

He appeared as David Bowie but somehow I could see his name was Iliaster. Hyle and Astrum words were vibrating across the fields. You could almost see the words, even sense them by some kind of supernatural fashion.

It was written with stardust. Hyle the shell and Astrum the ghost. How ghosts are really made. But memory of it disappeared, and left me with amnesia about the most important information I ever possessed.

Astral is not a superstitious construct, nor some super out of the reach reality. Everyone is more or less immersed in astral worlds.

Star is a symbol of astral light, of inner human ghost. And we are all stars.

I'm not sure through. That subreddit is meant for real experiences. Even through it possible for users to write fake stories, based on my experience, the forum like reddit, PC, etc are far more honest than news. Some stories involving groups, so it really weird to be mind tricks through it is possible that the writers write the group opinion based on their own perspectives.

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The stars... I always wonder is the astrology is real? Is zodiac real? I hope it won't be linked with astrology or zodiac.

Not a fan of astrology.
This is the second part, I mean first part, the first part was introduction:

SPACE STATIONS

It was a city so beautiful, so perfect, that its ghost was preserved in memory-djinn-bottle for all eternity, as one of the sacred nodes.

The guardian of this bottle is the one who is writing this text you are reading now. The gallery of dreams is my final resting place. The place I wish to remain in and be buried in, within dreams that will never stop unfolding.

Like infinite net of Arachne or Indra.

And the old man stands before this venture. With spider limbs growing out of his scull. And a torch that sets all the nodes alight.

Space stations I believe they were named by Bowie, the old man, the astronaut, the hermit, the ghost, here the writer.

Eight Line Poem

The tactful cactus by your window
Surveys the prairie of your room
The mobile spins to its collision
Clara puts her head between her paws
They've opened shops down West side
Will all the cacti find a home
But the key to the city
Is in the sun that pins
the branches to the sky -Bowie

The whole text:
http://namshub.netii.net/files/stars.pdf

Thanks for not adding zodiac or astrology. I dont know why, I still skeptical in those things even through I believe in others like ghost, supertition, and even tarot.

I assume the black star is not the end, right?

Ziggy Stardust, or Iliaster, is now an important part of my world, so it will probably somehow continue. But this piece I consider finished.

I dreamed another group of terror. They use reversed "world", an upside down one as their logo. No, they are not trying to join the argument between round earth or flat earth. It is their symbol for bringing down the "world".

This "world" however is very different. Maybe it was the earth in immeasurable years before it formed? Or probably fast forward in very future?

A very massive and hideous creature, they worship it. They want it to bring the world down. They are not only just a cult. They are its children too.

http://bit.ly/2xenLKT

This is one of my first (childhood) nightmares... except the heartbeat and noise part, thats something similar to a recent nightmare when I heard noise in my head that woke me up. So its a mess of two nightmares.