Confession of Fuzzybear. I'm not ok

I'm not a good person. I need your help to make me a "better person"

I'm not a bad person either.

I always was "doing something wrong"

And I wonder what I'm "doing wrong" now

Consider maybe that wanting to be a better person makes you a good one?

We will always be doing *something* wrong. The universe isn't perfect; Why should we expect such perfection of ourselves? You know your own intent and heart.

Thank you

One of my many flaws is I "post too much"

I'm very avoidant in real life - still trying to figure out how to make my way in the world or even to "fit in" .. do i keep my mouth shut?

Can anyone help me or even sit with me?

fuzzy I cant help you...I wish I could...I can only help myself...I am trying to be kind to myself....

Hi Fuzzy
Who told you that you post too much?
You dont post too much.

Like Clara said, you do not post too much! Actually, I suspect when people post in large amounts on here, it makes the rest of us feel like it's okay to post more. I always feel a little more willing to talk when others post a lot. I feel more comfortable opening up.

It's not a flaw at all!

Thanks Clara, nobody told me that. I have a harsh inner critic

((((((( Clara )))))))

Nah. Forums are made for posting.

(Hmm ... that doesn't sound as good as "These boots are made for walking" )

I wish I could better learn the skill of just being there for people instead of always trying to find the right words. I mean I know it ... but I often get scared off. You do well.

Fellow avoidant here. I can't promise help. But sitting I can do. What does someone bring to a bear picnic?

You know fuzzy i was thinking of posting something again and it's thanks to you that I feel ok to do that! Keep posting away! It's what the forums are here for.

((((((( Fuzzybear! )))))))

Not OK? Ill, yes. Evil, no. My distinct impressions.
Post too much? What is "posting too much"?

((((((( Fuzzybear! )))))))

Another confession, sometimes I feel lost here and that makes me feel like I'm "not ok" - "stuff" from abuse in childhood


And I miss many who used to post here

I hope they are well and happy - I know some of them are doing better

And so I'm a "failure" - = I'm "not a good person" - I haven't "moved on" = I'm "not ok"



I do think I post too much here as I feel exposed and vulnerable when nobody replies

I'm sitting looking at this blank screen,

I need to eat my supper, salmon

I feel like a "bad person"

You're not a bad person! It's just your depressed brain telling you that

Fuzzy, I feel lost here too sometimes. It could be the nature if an Internet forum. You are not alone though. I have started threads and have had zero replies before. It does hurt. I Just try to remind myself that its the freaking internet. And that I'm worthy of a response, even if no one says anything and I want to lash out and call them all idiots. I value your presence.

Failing means you are trying. Also sometimes I take breaks from here and I recommend it. It's refreshing. I'm willing to bet you are a good person. Maybe you are just: a person. With flaws, and you do your best. That's most of us. aside from like, Jesus. And even he wasn't perfect. But we all are always doing our best. Go easy on yourself.

Thanks starrysky - having zero replies does hurt. I'm sorry it happened to you. Sometimes people just don't know what to say and so say nothing, I'm sure you know that already, but if others receive 20 replies it can feel... uncomfortable It does make someone feel unappreciated but you are worthy of a response and so am I I have anxiety and social anxiety amongst other things so these things hurt and bring back memories which are sub optimal. But actually I do think pc is a supportive place for the most part. I value your presence too

Thanks ((((( starrysky )))))

Thank you ((((( Shazerac )))))

Hi there Fuzzybear,
I read a lot but don't often post. However, just seeing your name makes me smile, and as I read posts in the relatively short time I have been on this site I always notice how kind and welcoming you are to everyone. And then I find myself wishing you could extend that same warmth and compassion to yourself as well!
I don't know you obviously, but I think anyone known as "Fuzzybear" and with such a caring heart, can't POSSIBLY be a bad person. And as a social work major as well as someone who experiences depression, anxiety attacks and has survived myself, I'd like to think I am a pretty good judge of character lol.

I love salmon. I wish I had salmon more frequently.

I love your posts, Fuzzy

Same for me.

Fuzzy, you are one of the kindest, posters on here. I think you show such great empathy for others. I am sorry, you feel like a bad person, that is definitely not how I view you.

That damn inner critic, can be a pain in the backside. I try to tell mine to get lost sometimes, but know at other times, it can feel very crushing and takes over my head.

Big hugs to you.