[Molson Can]

Good morning,

My main issue currently is depression. I have had it for so long. Sure I had it before I could identify it.

Been in and out of therapy; yet yo find anything that works.

Trying to find a new psychiatrist, but either yhey dont take my insurance or I can't get a call back. Which is just making it worse.

Right now, my internest is refilling my scripts, but won't write anything new.

Not sure where to go from here.

[Fuzzybear]

Welcome to pc

[Sunflower123]

Don't give up. Keep trying. It is difficult and vexing but you'll get there. Good luck.

[Molson Can]

So, I finally got a doctor to call me back. She does not have availability, but did give me some referrals. WOOT

[*Laurie*]

Great! Be persistent - if they don't call you, call again!

[dexter]

Check if your insurance co can help you. I was struggling with the same problem---No availability, no callbacks, lots of depression and frustration---when I discovered my insurance has a service that advocated for me. They made the calls and found someone with availability for me. Good luck to you.

[Winterbritt]

Hi there!!
I didn't have much luck with therapists. I took my depression into my own hands and I am very thankful to say that I am ok now.

If you're looking for any resources, I would recommend Byron Katie and her process of Inquiry. It's a simple process you go through to examine your negative thoughts that diffuses their power of you. It's something you can do anytime anywhere, and after awhile it becomes automatic. You just notice a depressed thought, identify it as such, see through it and then go on with your day. It's really about not believing every thought you happen to have. It's something my therapists never even seemed to imagine was possible. But it absolutely fixed me.

The other thing I would suggest, if you are interested, would be deciding what you want life to be like, very clearly. If you've been depressed for a long time like I was was, I didn't have a clear picture of what life without depression would look like. I was trying so hard to get to a place and I didn't even know what it looked like.

Once you decide what your life without depression looks like, you can start uncovering that life from the depression that puts that ugly blanket over everything. I did it by keeping lists everyday of gratitude, beauty, and humor. I wrote about it here: A Good Life Discovered: Bullet Journal for Joy - Winterbritt

And also, keep the faith! I am rooting for you.

[seizaxhoshi]

Hello! I am so sorry that this is happening to you, it is hard and i am very proud of you for making it this far! hugs and support to you. <3

I hope from the bottom of my heart that you will find the help you need, i am confident that you will find the right coping skills or the right treatment to help soon!!

I'm just some angsty teenager but i matured way too quickly and understand these things very much, i understand the feeling of not being able to find the right solution to help, but i found some and you will too, it just takes time. <3

Again i am very proud of you!!! Keep yourself safe, i'll maybe talk to you again soon.

[Molson Can]

Thank you everybody for the suggestions, hugs, and support.

I now have an apt with a psychologist this coming Monday. We talked on the phone a bit yesterday and settled on meeting her first and then deciding on a psychiatrist for the meds. She noted, meds keep someone stable, talk moves you ahead.

[Molson Can]

I read Your Good Life. Very cool.

Interesting, I would journal about all the bad stuff I was feeling and what caused it.

There is sorta a prayer I say every morning, in Hebrew it starts, "Modeh Ani"
Means "I thank". Essentially thanking G-d for restoring my soul to me so I can live another day.

[dexter]

meds keep someone stable, talk moves you ahead.

I agree with that. Congratulations and good luck.

[Winterbritt]

Originally Posted by Molson Can

I read Your Good Life. Very cool.

Interesting, I would journal about all the bad stuff I was feeling and what caused it.

There is sorta a prayer I say every morning, in Hebrew it starts, "Modeh Ani"
Means "I thank". Essentially thanking G-d for restoring my soul to me so I can live another day.

Hi thank you. I figured that I was already very good at noticing and keeping track of the bad stuff. Once I started purposely paying attention to the good, I just kind of lost track of the bad stuff. It just kind of worked itself out

I really like your prayer idea! There's an interesting hawaiian prayer too. It is "I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you." You say it to yourself, to the universe, to God, to everything in your mind. It works off the idea that everything in your world.. all the people events etc, are really inside yourself. You perception and thoughts and beliefs and feelings are all your own responsibility because they are within you. So the prayer helps you cleanse all the negative energy from yourself and in return from your world. I've been researching it a lot. Just thought you might be interested.

[Molson Can]

So, I met with the therapist yesterday. She is a psychoanalyst. Not quite sure how that differs from regular therapy. Talked about my background and the meds I was on. She concurred I should meet with a MD to review the meds. Waiting for a call back today on that.

[Winterbritt]

Originally Posted by Molson Can

So, I met with the therapist yesterday. She is a psychoanalyst. Not quite sure how that differs from regular therapy. Talked about my background and the meds I was on. She concurred I should meet with a MD to review the meds. Waiting for a call back today on that.

Hi there, I am glad you are making some progress on it! How are you doing? Are you getting along alright while you wait for the meds to get worked out? Did talking to the therapist seem to make you feel any better?