[Gracem644]

Hi, ok so this is quite hard to explain in words but anyways I'm a 17 year old girl that is diagnosed with depression,anxiety and OCD. I'm currently on 40mg of prozac a day and take prescribed beta blockers and sleeping pills. So The past 2 months or maybe even longer have been really weird. I've been constantly having these unusual thoughts to be honest they aren't that strange but the way I respond to them is freaking me out , for example yesterday I had a thought that I wanted to convert to Islam and become a Muslim???so ,I basically took the whole day reading parts of the Quran online ,downloading Quran and praying apps, practicing prayer and how to put on a hijab (with a scarf) ,my family were telling me that i was crazy etc and I kept lecturing them on how If I didn't do to his id burn in hell (they told me I said this today) I also tried to get them to convert to Islam aswell (we are christians) Anyways that night when I was going to sleep I was like what the ***** just happened ,I could barely remember anything about that day ,it felt like it was a different person. I was confused and upset ,I ended up deleting all the apps and apologising to my family,yes I know this sounds f'ed up but I didn't know where else to ask for help. This has been happening a lot there is more examples I could explain but they basically just plan out exactly like the example I just spoke about .Im confused and upset ,it takes all my time out of the day and it feels like it's a different person. Also I thought I'd add in that lately I've been seeing stuff that I think isnt real, shadows mainly on walls and blurry insects and faces moving. Please help me .

[Skeezyks]

Hello Gracem: I'm sorry you are experiencing so much difficulty. I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! There's not going to be much of anything I can offer with regard to this unfortunately. Perhaps others will have some insights to offer. From my perspective, I really think this is all something you need to be discussing with whatever mental health professionals you have in your life... hopefully a mental health therapist & a psychiatrist.

I see you live in the U.K. And I have the impression, from reading posts here on PC, that accessing quality mental health care in the U.K. can be a challenge. Personally, I think the important thing right now is to try not to let all of this get to you & increase your anxiety level even more than it already is. And see if you can get some professional help sorting all of this out. Oh... & also keep posting here on PC, as well as reading & replying to other members' posts. That can help too. My best wishes to you...

[Sunflower123]

Hello. Welcome to PC.

Definitely see your doctor to assess to if you need Medication. This is your best course of action

[Neverlosehope87]

I would definitely speak to the doctor who prescribed all of your medications. It’s possible they are side effects from the medications. It’s also possible that they’re not the right medication for you and the concerns you’re currently having. Are you receiving any type of therapy or counselling?? Some of the concerns your expressed should be addressed as soon as you can. I can’t imagine how stressful it must be to almost be another person for the day, to disassociate like that. I hope you can find the right kind of help you need, because there are so many different kinds. Just remember that you are not alone in this fight.