[mar33]

Why do we go on every day? Why do we struggle to attain pain, fight to achieve purposelessness, strive to succeed without fulfillment? Some times it feels as though the repetitive futility of day to day life creates a nothingness that will only cycle back as fuel for the next dull week.
Feeling thoughtful and overwhelmed with it all today. Wondering if I'm the only one who doesn't want to be here anymore.

[KattChaos]

I feel the same way about 99% of the time. I'm glad I'm not alone atleast.

[MtnTime2896]

You're not alone.

I don't know what reason(s) have kept you going thus far, but I know for me it's the people I care about.

Doubt that's the first time you've heard this. I just thought I'd say it. Only you will ever know why you do it, that applies to all who feel this way.

[Grath]

Originally Posted by mar33

Why do we go on every day? Why do we struggle to attain pain, fight to achieve purposelessness, strive to succeed without fulfillment? Some times it feels as though the repetitive futility of day to day life creates a nothingness that will only cycle back as fuel for the next dull week.
Feeling thoughtful and overwhelmed with it all today. Wondering if I'm the only one who doesn't want to be here anymore.

I feel you. My life seems meaningless as well at the moment.
But I refuse to give up. I won't let this story become a short one with a bad ending. What kind of author would I be then?

I go on because I feel like there's hope. In being older as I am now hopes seem to fade. So I don't know why I want to keep going on myself. I feel like something good will be there for me down the road. It's weird that I feel that way.

I know how you feel, though.

[Sunflower123]

I feel that way sometimes....just a few days ago in fact. I go on for my daughter. We are very close and I don’t think I have the right to lob a grenade into her life which is what I’d be doing. I initially thought I’d get her through high school and set up for college but I’m feeling a bit better now and I’ve discovered she needs me now more then ever.

I hope you start feeling better about your life.

[CepheidVariable]

Originally Posted by will19

I go on because I feel like there's hope. In being older as I am now hopes seem to fade. So I don't know why I want to keep going on myself. I feel like something good will be there for me down the road. It's weird that I feel that way.

I know how you feel, though.

I identify with this. There are things I would dearly love to have known or experienced in my life ... and if I haven't been able to do so by now -- after so many years, I don't really have hope. But maybe a little something. Maybe.

On a good day, I can feel there are things to take enjoyment in -- that it's enough.

On a bad day, I don't have much. I don't have any big thing that holds me like what some other people are able to find. No children, no love, no realistic dream. It's seems so lacking, but a lot like this:

Originally Posted by Grath

My life seems meaningless as well at the moment.
But I refuse to give up. I won't let this story become a short one with a bad ending. What kind of author would I be then?

So the best personal answer I can give you is ... just stubborn really.

Today is a good day. But I won't deny I have days where I feel like the above, so I thought I should share.

[LostIntrovert]

In general I don't have a good answer. I don't have any significant goals in life, nor is there anyone I love, really. Given my social phobia and fear of intimacy I'm not even sure that love is something I want.

I guess it's the fact that I still have really good days now and then. Like weekends when it doesn't rain. Especially when I can go backpacking or skiing or something like that. When I'm completely alone on top of a mountain, far, far away from society and its absurd expectations, I actually feel extremely alive and happy.