I have a question: what is your true motivation?

a question I was asked recently got me thinking.

someone commented: I don't know how you do it, chronic pain, all these MI issues, lack of sleep, how do you do it?. what is your motivation to keep going?

at the time I couldn't answer, and in a way I still can't- I did eventually give them an answer though.. I told them it was because you only get one shot at life, and you need to try and make it count- no matter how bad things get. their are no second chances

that was my answer

what's yours?.

what is your true motivation

is it like mine or is it something deper for you?

My motivation is what I want to give others

Same as Teddy Bear

I think if I didn't have a job or kids, I just couldn't. So I guess that is my motivation.

It would be nice if you started one thread instead of two with the exact same title. I realize both of your threads are in different forums, but...for those of us who just click NEW POSTS, we would not get confused where we responded since you now have two exact threads. Perhaps different titles for each one you start in other forums?

I always wanted to have a normal life. By normal, not being constantly depressed.

I made a promise.

I think one of the core motivations has been to make myself ‘normal’, or ‘cool.’

I’ve never really fit in and have always struggled to live a normal life. Ive always felt I was behind, forgotten, not wanted, just another messed up kid, pitied, and looked at like a ghost.

Still to this day look for that normal life. I can’t fit in with those with ‘normal’ lives because I have struggled my entire life. It is hard for me to socialize with them because of it.

My pdoc actually asked me this in my intake, as I’m struggling with a lot of things. And I couldn’t answer either. I am not close emotionally to my family, I don’t have many friends (one who lives a few hours away from me), and I feel awful. I don’t really know. I could only guess is that I really want to complete my degree in biomedical engineering and work on medicine creation for mental illness. But I’m empty emotionally, really. I tend to like all the wrong people (ie teachers, staff at uni) who can’t do the things I need/want them to do.

I am pretty depressed and a lot of things in my life have been completely turned upside down in the past couple of years.. I don't have the family or friends I once had and I don't really have anything or anyone to keep me going...

I guess curiosity is my motivation...

I suppose for those brief, rare, sometimes unexpected moments when it all DOES (oops, freudian slip...screen said dies....worrying) seem worth it and there IS a bloody point.

I promised my daughter long ago when she was a baby. I go on for her. Checking out would be like throwing a grenade into her life and I don’t have that right. On really good days, I also want to go on for me.