[ace333]

Its been a good while since I posted. I'm faced with a new dilemma. Things in my life are ok. Nothing overly bad or stressful. Which should make me calm and happy. But I'm feeling down, bored, unsatisfied. I have been very irritated with no real cause. I'm antsy all the time. I really just want to get rid of everything I own, not to pay off debt but just because I'm annoyed by everything surrounding me. I'm just annoyed and uninterested in everything. I'm not happy, but cant think of anything that will make me happy, I've tried new hobbies nothing is interesting or exciting. I have no passion and no emotion other than anger and being bored and annoyed. Does anyone have any advice or know what these feelings are?

[MickeyCheeky]

I can relate to your struggles actually. I don't know what it is do you see a therapist?

[ace333]

I dont currently, but have before. We tried a bunch of times to figure it out but nothing ever worked or fit. The closest thing she could decipher is that I have a high i.q. which means I get bored with things easily and need to find activities that stimulate my brain. But nothing worked. Plus I just dont see how having a high i.q. relates to losing interest in living period. I'm not suicidal,but I think living it pointless. nothing interests me in any sense and I get annoyed and angry about it.

[Skeezyks]

Yes I can relate to this. It's kind-of the way I am much of the time. I don't know what causes it though. In my case, I presume it is a mixture of depression & anxiety. The depression makes it difficult to work up enthusiasm for much of anything. And the anxiety contributes that antsy feeling. It's sort-of a "push-me-pull-you" sort of experience. Especially first thing in the morning, after I get up, all I want to do is go back to bed & pull the covers up over my head. But, at the same time, I know I would be too antsy to stay there. So I just stay up & do what needs to be done.

I'm not a mental health professional, by the way. And I don't know what your gender is, of course. (I'm male.) But what you describe (& what I experience) is, I believe, more-or-less typical of depression in men. Here's a link to an article, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/10-thi...le-depression/

(Perhaps if you're female, however, you simply are struggling with a form of depression that is similar?)

I'm not sure what to tell you as far as how to deal with this goes. Therapy would be the thing that would typically be recommended. I know you mentioned you had seen a therapist but without much success. Perhaps the therapist you saw was not the best one for you? Or perhaps you didn't hang in there long enough? (That's been an issue for me over the years.) One technique for dealing with anger that seems to be recommended quite often, in the articles in PsychCentral's archives, is the practice of mindfulness. Here's an example:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/3-mind...avigate-anger/

Perhaps another way of describing what you're dealing with is that you just feel lost. Here's a link to an article that talks about that:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-y...sts_position=2

Beyond that, the only thing I can think of to say is that, somehow, perhaps you have to find something you can commit yourself to. I'm an older person now. And I find that routine becomes increasingly important... & significant... in my day-to-day life. I pretty-much do the same things day-in & day-out. And one of the things I do is to reply to posts here on PC... a lot of them! And over time, it has become something of a passion for me. It didn't start out that way. But that's what it seems to have evolved into... to a large extent, I believe, through repetition. So, perhaps, if you can find something you're at least willing to do (you don't have to love it at first), & if you do it & keep doing it, maybe over time it can become a life-raft, so to speak that, you can use to "float" yourself beyond the anger, boredom & annoyance you currently feel. I don't know... it's just a thought. I wish you well...

[ace333]

Thank you for your help. I am actually female. Just to put it out there since you said to read the Male oriented article. Which is fine I'm sure it would no matter the gender. I consider myself to still be young, I will be 30 this year. I'm not stressing bout it, because it was almost my first thought when this issue began.

[seeminglyreal]

I can completely relate to this. Except, amidst all my apathy, I have bouts of passion, when I get really into something, to the point where it consumes all my thoughts. It never lasts long though, and I'm back at my usual state of apathy.

Your struggles sound a bit like depression to me, like Skeezy said. Perhaps you could consider going back to therapy to sort things out?

[Peacebwu]

Ace33 I can relate to what you are describing. It sounds like depression and anxiety to me. I am not a therapist by any stretch. I can say that depression keeps us feeling numb or sad. It's hard to be motivated and think or feel positive feelings. Anxiety makes us feel agitated like we need to fix or do something. When the two visit at the same time it's a tug of war that's exhausting.
Can you look back and figure out when the first time was that you started to feel this way? Was there something, some place or someone that transpired a the feelings of anger and hurt? Sometimes we dismiss things thinking it's not a big deal and little by little we start to get chipped away at until we find this mountain out of nowhere we don't have the energy to climb. It usually started with a small fleeting thought or feeling we didn't address, at the time.
It takes great bravery to look into the deeper place of pain and find a way out. Sometimes, if we're honest we don't want to face it. I would suggest seeking our a therapist's help. Depression is very heavy and sometimes we need someone to help us navigate and remind us of our self worth.
I'd suggest not making any big decisions with your life while in this state. Wait it out and see if you still want to get rid of your belongings once these feelings pass.
I can say you're not alone! You are worthy of a life worth living! I'm impressed by the effort you have gone to for finding something to enjoy. I can also relate to that sinking dark place when you know what you are doing should bring you joy but you're not happy, you're angry, the sun doesn't look bright no matter how beautiful it is or should be. This isn't your fault! And, it will eventually go when it's times is up hopefully used for the purpose to bring you to attention of the love you need and deserve inside for yourself. Big hugs!

Originally Posted by seeminglyreal

I can completely relate to this. Except, amidst all my apathy, I have bouts of passion, when I get really into something, to the point where it consumes all my thoughts. It never lasts long though, and I'm back at my usual state of apathy.

Your struggles sound a bit like depression to me, like Skeezy said. Perhaps you could consider going back to therapy to sort things out?

It sounds like depression to me too. Currently I m going through severe depression and I don't feel motivated to do anything. I can't think of any hobbies that would interest me. Not reading books, going to the movies or even watching tv. You may need to take the help of a pdoc. You may need meds to help you out along with therapy. Sometimes the feeling of anger, anxiety, irritation, and anhedonia and apathy can be bc of a drop in chemicals in the brain.

Originally Posted by Skeezyks

Yes I can relate to this. It's kind-of the way I am much of the time. I don't know what causes it though. In my case, I presume it is a mixture of depression & anxiety. The depression makes it difficult to work up enthusiasm for much of anything. And the anxiety contributes that antsy feeling. It's sort-of a "push-me-pull-you" sort of experience. Especially first thing in the morning, after I get up, all I want to do is go back to bed & pull the covers up over my head. But, at the same time, I know I would be too antsy to stay there. So I just stay up & do what needs to be done.
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Beyond that, the only thing I can think of to say is that, somehow, perhaps you have to find something you can commit yourself to. I'm an older person now. And I find that routine becomes increasingly important... & significant... in my day-to-day life. I pretty-much do the same things day-in & day-out. And one of the things I do is to reply to posts here on PC... a lot of them! And over time, it has become something of a passion for me. It didn't start out that way. But that's what it seems to have evolved into... to a large extent, I believe, through repetition. So, perhaps, if you can find something you're at least willing to do (you don't have to love it at first), & if you do it & keep doing it, maybe over time it can become a life-raft, so to speak that, you can use to "float" yourself beyond the anger, boredom & annoyance you currently feel. I don't know... it's just a thought. I wish you well...

This would be helpful to me too, thanks!