An OK day at work today. Took a bike ride after work. Went to the pool area tonight; and for some strange reason, the lights were off there. It appeared to be dark and eerie looking. Well, at least there were not anyone there to bother me.

[twistypringle98]

It's like I just woke up and am not playing around anymore. I seriously didn't snap because I've never snapped in my life, especially when there's some really bad things going on. Then it's like I'm the coolest person alive. Like I'm a machine.

[Rose76]

I'm still doing alright.

[WishfulThinker66]

I missed support group last night and I am beating myself up for it. Honestly, I completely forgot. My routine is a bit out of sorts as my boyfriend is out of town. I suppose that is the reason but I am still upset with myself and feeling rather down.

[nikon]

i'm really glad it's the weekend. today was ok, but i feel really out of it. i'm super dizzy and feel light headed and weird. i'm not sure if it's side effects.

[SeekerOfLife]

Struggling.

[Smileonmyface]

getting ready to go out to a fair with the kids for my daughter's girl scouts for her flag ceremony. getting anxious about it, but hopefully it goes well. hope i find the meeting spot okay.

[Rose76]

I've been lazy. I'm trying to rest my sore foot. At least that's my excuse.

[Smileonmyface]

well kids had fun at the fair thanks to meeting up with neighbors. upset at how daughter is treated at girl scouts. bullied and ignored. it sickens me because it brings me right back to my own childhood. not sure how to proceed. it breaks my heart i want her to always know how special she is no matter how popular. girls are so cruel.

It was fairly busy at work today, which was unexpected for a Friday. There was going to be a phone conference meeting at noon that I dreaded and it didn't happen. I feel mixed about that because there was an issue I wanted to go over. Later in the afternoon I was searching for places to stay at for a trip I want to take in October.

When I got home I called my sister because she had promised me that she would send me some stuff where she is. It's been over a week that she said that she was going to send me the stuff and she still hasn't done it. That got me upset. She's been telling me that she's been busy. She always says that she's busy. She wanted me to be understanding. There had been times when I couldn't deliver what I said that I could do for her; and boy do I ever hear about how mad she is! I hardly ever make promises to others and not deliver.

I worked out and it went very well. Went to the pool area. It started off good and then a couple of people came in to ruin it for me.

[smallbluefish]

the sky was nice today; overall feeling a bit isolated, incapable, and unsure at the moment though.

quite a dull day- just catching up on tv programmes and checking here once in a while

weather was nice and wintery yesterday (really nice), but we're back to sun today

no sleep

overeating still out of control

This day is only beginning. Woke up feeling depressed and feeling like people around me are doing me wrong. So much had been going on in my mind. I plan to visit my friend today. I hope it goes well. I don't feel comfortable at his place, but I feel obligated to go there.

[Rose76]

I feel pretty good. I'm not going to waste the whole day, like I did yesterday.

[nikon]

i've had a really busy and mostly good day but feel physically bad now. i did a jewellery-making workshop this morning which was great fun. this kind of makes me question why the hell i am studying in the field i am - psychology - when there are practical things i enjoy doing. i'm pretty stuck now though, because if i dropped out it would be the third incomplete degree, and i can't do that forever.

i feel physically ****, and i'm starting to question if i need to worry about it. a few months ago i went through a few weeks/more of being completely exhausted all the time. after a while it left, but i kind of feel like that again. dizzy, nauseous, exhausted, and brain zaps. since my one med was decreased about a month or more ago i haven't slept as deeply and have crazy dreams that wake me up and make me feel tired because they're so busy.

[Smileonmyface]

disappointed. texted with another mom from girl scouts about the bullying. she sympathized with me and urged me to talk to the leader. sent a text to the leader, very nice, just trying to find out if my daughter gets along with the other girls okay while she is at scouts. no response all day.

A pretty good day. I got a lot accomplished. I went shopping early in morning, cleaned my place, made a month's supply of spaghetti sauce, and visited my friend. The time with my friend went alright. There was a brief moment of tension between he and his wife.

Nothing much for tonight. I will watch a movie. That's all I do on Saturday nights. I wish I could do other things, like have a good time with friends.

happy it is raining

not sleeping and eating too much, but bleh

feel good I guess

[nikon]

i'm not feeling good today. feel really down, bad memories flooding around in my head, feel hopeless about work and about not having a stable job. i really feel quite hopeless today.

[katydid777]

I am feeling better today. Not great, but better. I ended up seeing my Primary Dr. last week, and this coming week I have to see her again, then Thurs. I see my new T for the 2nd time, but I know that with my new T, that will be good.

[88Butterfly88]

I've been having nightmares that are more then I can handle and it's making me very depressed.

[Smileonmyface]

heard back from troop leader. she doubts any of the girls would be deliberately mean. really? baloney. she validated and agreed that my daughter is not really connecting with the other girls. they are working on it. meh.

Been pretty occupied this morning, so far. Felt very depressed this morning before having breakfast. I went to look at potential place where I may want to live. I wasn't too serious about it. I saw a few places but could not go inside a couple of them. I saw one and got a brochure. It was very costly, so I can forget about that one.

I called my sister after that. She said that she sent the stuff I had requested from her yesterday. She says that I could get it tomorrow morning. At least that was nice that she did it. She had promised to send me the things a week-and-a-half ago, but didn't do it, and it got me mad. So I'm happy that she got it together this time.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

Possible trigger:

mother hurling more abuse at me again via email.

I'm not paying any attention to it. she's home for a while (until the end of the month), and is threatening to burn down where I live because she wants me dead and has had no word from anyone if I am dead or not

but I deleted it and ignored it. that woman isn't worth the effert

still unable to control my overeating, still not sleeping and in a lot of chronic pain

my mood would probably be good if it wasn't for my ****ing mother

I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope your mother will take a break from abusing you.