It wasn't busy today at work, but that was to be expected. It seemed like it got warmer again, unfortunately. Did the laundry after work. Things went very wrong there. First off, a couple of washers had completed the wash cycle, which made it the only two washers available for me to use. I waited a while, and then I decided to take the clothes out and put mine in. There's a sign that says that others have the right to do that when it happens. It's a laundry room at my complex. When I put the clothes on the table to put my clothes in the washer, a woman came. I knew who she was. She was upset. That was unfortunate for me because I liked her. She's only one of the very few people at where I live that I like. And now she hates me. And then when it came time to do the drying, one of the machines didn't work and took my money.

I went to get a take out for dinner and it wasn't that good. I always prefer my own cooking by far over getting a take out. It's just that it's hard to cook and clean up while I'm doing the laundry.

I am in a lot of pain today.

so this morning during my shower, I had problems moving my arms/ legs and had breathing difficulties, none of this I'm going to collapse, none of that... but I did, what I like to call, " sway", and quite fast

just about made it to breakfast in a lot of agony, ate breakfast, and then came back to my room and just chilled out.

I'm feeling better now (I'm breathing normally, and I'm not in pain), um..... okay, I am a little in my legs

I hate chronic pain, especially when it flares up really bad- all the energy in you just goes away

going to eat some chips this afternoon and post a bit on here

and then find something for dinner

[catwalk69]

Nice Post

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I am in a lot of pain today.

so this morning during my shower, I had problems moving my arms/ legs and had breathing difficulties, none of this I'm going to collapse, none of that... but I did, what I like to call, " sway", and quite fast

just about made it to breakfast in a lot of agony, ate breakfast, and then came back to my room and just chilled out.

I'm feeling better now (I'm breathing normally, and I'm not in pain), um..... okay, I am a little in my legs

I hate chronic pain, especially when it flares up really bad- all the energy in you just goes away

going to eat some chips this afternoon and post a bit on here

and then find something for dinner

(((((raging vortex)))))
hope you recover completely very soon.

[Smileonmyface]

I am extremely upset and feel like there will be a cloud hanging over this long weekend. I just learned that my mental health services provider is closing. Once again I will have to find another therapist and doctor to prescribe my meds. I just went through this a year ago, the jumping through hoops to find a new place after my nurse practitioner left the last place I was at. This is exhausting and upsetting all around, for myself, for all the other adults and kids who get services there, and for the people who work there who are out of a job because of this. This is really hitting me hard.

[regretful]

Depressed, angry, frustrated, stressed...low quality of life and missing the days when I used to look forward to a holiday weekend.

[SlumberKitty]

Depressed and sad today. Got some stuff accomplished at work like making a decision on what health insurance we are going to offer in open enrollment so that makes me feel good but now I'm just counting down to the weekend and wanting to go hide out in my bed and be by myself. Dinner with the parents tonight though--forced socialization--might not be too bad. Talked to my Dad earlier and it should be low key. Having a meal with my parents regularly is good for me. I know this. Its a good routine. Its good for me to be with people that care about me. It's good for me to not be a hermit. It's good for me to not be alone. I know all of this. I just don't feel like it today which is all the more reason why its important today.

[88Butterfly88]

I was depressed for about an hour today but then it passed.

[Rose76]

I'm doing alright. Kind of lazy though. If I accomplished a little more, I'ld feel really good about life in general. Getting started in the morning is the hard part. I should rise to the challenge. It would pay off.

A slow day at work today, but that was to be expected. Having three days off this weekend instead of two. Tomorrow will be no problem finding things to do. It's from after tomorrow afternoon until going back to work on Tuesday that I would feel like I have too much time on my hands. My friend wants me to take him out somewhere on Monday, but I don't know where to go and I just don't want to. I don't want to do the driving in the heat and deal with the crowds.

most of my physical pain from yesterday has gone (which I am greatful for)

legs hurt a bit today
feel a little sad that a woman I like ashley will no longer be part of my treatment team (she told me yesterday), but the good thing is she did it face to face, and she even hugged me before she left

miss her terribly though- but trying to hold it together.

still way out of control with my eating, got a new package of sweets ariving this morning (actually it arived about an hour ago,) and I'm all ready eating them.

didnt sleep

also annoyed that I recorded some stuff on tv, but the stupid thing decided not to record it

bleh

[sky457]

First post in a bit...

Not doing well right now...it’s the middle of the night. I truly feel alone....no one cares about me. I have absolutely no one...

[Smileonmyface]

still sad and upset about about the closing of my providers. going out to the park with our neighbor and her kids so that should be a nice positive thing. leaving in a few minutes. hubby is going to spend time with us tomorrow looking forward to that. monday will be a boring day at home getting ready for the kids to school tuesday, and then they are off.

It looks like it's going to be a busy day for me, as usual on a Saturday. Nothing social coming up. I messaged my friend to have him visit me. I don't think he's going to come. Getting him to come to my place is like pulling teeth. But, on the other hand, I turn him down a lot on invitations. I wonder why we are friends?

Almost finished with my cleaning. Just taking a break with coffee (the coffee is tasting weak - I don't know how it did it wrong). I will go to the bank and store after lunch. A busy, lonely, and mellow kind of day. I keep forgetting that I have Monday off.

I'm a failure

overeating is bad

no sleep again

still very depressed about yesterday's outing to the fair, and I'm trying to just move on... but their's so much I think about that I won't do- and so much I'vem issed out on.

plus the fair is giving me flashbacks

the fair is giving me flashbacks

sad, sad

[Smileonmyface]

couldn't sleep last night because I am so wound up about clinic closure. i know, i am like a broken record. it is hitting me very hard. not only am i upset about what am I going to do; how am I going to get my medicines; I am worked up about all the providers losing their jobs and feeling sad for them. The best thing I can do is go out today with hubby and the kids and try to take my mind off of it. I don't know what we will do together but I hope we figure out something at least.

I did not sleep well last night. I had a headache. Pretty busy for a Sunday morning. Around 9 I walked to a church (I had not been to a church service for months) I used to attend. When I got there, it looked like the service had been over, but I wasn't sure. It didn't look appealing to me, so I didn't go in. I just headed back home.

When I got home, I decided to make reservations for my vacation next month. I planned on October 6-12. After intense searching in the last few days and narrowing my choice, I called the first place I picked. It turned out they didn't have what I wanted available. So I called the 2nd place one and got that time booked. After that I booked the round-trip flights and car rental. I can't believe it's all done now! It's a big load off of me, but I'm having some remorse in doing this. Maybe that's normal. It's been six years since I went away on a trip.

[Smileonmyface]

Didn't go out with the family but I did do a big grocery shop with just the baby while hubby stayed home with the girls and did some cleaning. So win win. Still unsettled and upset. I won't feel relief until I am established at a new place, or at least the one I used to go to. I'll have to see what happens this week.

[katydid777]

I didn't sleep well, I woke about every 2 hours. I feel a little better today, compared to yesterday. But my mood is down. Today I feel like I am glad another day is almost gone. No different from yesterday, or tomorrow.

[twistypringle98]

Still smoking but just the vape. At least I think cigarettes are done. I'm very interested in getting over them and getting healthy again. I've lost some weight. I don't know how much, but my face is getting fatter. That's not good at all! I'm eating sunflower seeds because they are high in magnesium which is good for anxiety. I find nutrients and vitamins and all those sorts of things interesting.

After lunch I took a three hour bike ride. It was a very nice day for it. Warm but not hot. Very windy in some spots. Feeling alone and empty tonight. My sister had called while I was out on my bike ride.

My friend asked me about lunch tomorrow. I couldn't come up with a place to go. I'd rather he just come to my place instead of going to a restaurant. I get the feeling that the eating places are going to be crowded tomorrow. I can't stand crowds. He seems to like it. So I hope we won't get into a fight about it. Also I would have to do the driving and I don't want to do it.

[katydid777]

Again I didn't sleep well, and my low back hurts. Hopefully things will get better as the day goes.

not a good day

able to go to the shop for my food (which was a good thing, at least I have my dinner in the house)

but apart from that.... I am bad

my overeating again is really out of control, I didn't sleep, my flashbacks are bad, things just suck

[Smileonmyface]

found out this morning that i can have both kids take the bus both ways to school. i will not have to travel to the school at all. i am relieved i did not like having to go to school every day and seeing everybody there.