[SlumberKitty]

Feel more depressed today than I have been. Unfortunately.

[Fuzzybear]

I’m sending love and hugs to all

I am feeling okay.

this morning was a bit stressfull/ overwelming, but yeah... I'm doing okay

just listening to music and trying not to think about it

[twistypringle98]

I've decided to escape this lifestyle that I have. No one around me is happy at all, and I just know that. Sometimes they treat me like I'm the only thing that can be in their lives that can help them be happy, and sometimes they treat me like I'm worthless. I don't know what strikes up this dichotomy because I'm barely happy myself and I'm totally just coming around to the idea that I'm not actually worthless.

Unless I take the time to save up some money, I'm never getting anywhere. I could have some, I just am sort of lazy about it.

[Yzen]

I had the first appointment with my new T (after months away from therapy). I was so worried about meeting with her that I was shaking in the waiting room. I like her! I am looking forward to continuing to work with her.
Maybe this will be good?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Yzen

I had the first appointment with my new T (after months away from therapy). I was so worried about meeting with her that I was shaking in the waiting room. I like her! I am looking forward to continuing to work with her.
Maybe this will be good?

This sounds very hopeful Thanks for sharing

[WishfulThinker66]

I am in an extreme amount of distress owing to a new job with unrealistic expectations. In addition to the anxiety I am just feeling horrible and really down on myself. I ought not to be feeling anxious. I ought not to be feeling intimidated. I ought not to be irritated. I ought not to be bothered my my coworkers' lack of work ethic and poor performance. I ought I ought I ought. This is really getting me down.

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs to all

[Rose76]

I'm doing a lot better. Got the bed cleared off of paperwork.

It's only a couple more days from now when I go on my trip. It seems like things are happening to try to divert my trip so that I can't go. This afternoon I was told that they never got my vacation request. I thought that it had been approved. And then an emergency happened at work.

I worked out today and I won't be working out until after next week. I think it's about time to relax with it. I talked to my friend tonight and he acted very weird.

[Smileonmyface]

Up in the middle of the night. Can't sleep. Mind is racing. It's been a long time since this has happened; a lot going on, a lot of it good. so I will try to get over the not sleeping part cause that sucks.

[Rose76]

Almost 3:30 a.m. and I'm also awake. I wish there was a thread just for insomniacs, like a check in deal.

I made progress yesterday. Got to build on it today, if I want to get back to where life feels worth living. It's within grasp. Just got to keep reaching.

It's 530 am here and i cant sleep either. Everything hurts. I think it's partly from less amitriptyline. Maybe the weather change too. Had frost already. I'm hoping to have something good happen this weekend. At least i got laundry and dishes done yesterday.

I feel like i might as well get up for coffee snd skip trying to sleep anymore

today I found out from a long time friend that one of the people she knew for 5 years (and I knew too), passed away

she emailed me asking for my support on the whole thing, because she's devistated and saddened by the loss- which honestly shocks me a little, when this guy was alive, he did nothing but boss us both around and go on about how he was better than both of us- so I am trying to support her, though it's difficult when I don't feel anything myself, and she's upset over someone who she hated

I got a phone call today from someone else I used to know, randomly rang me to tell me she got a new job at a furniture store. I was thrilled to hear from her, and we had a small catch up

had my shower today, and as usual felt gross after, really itchy and sore as well.

feeling okay mood wise I guess, despite realising that another week has passed and i've done **** all with my life and the time given to me. makes me wonder why I keep living, but their we go... some people are

Possible trigger:

very unlucky while others get to end their life and go to heaven.

[WishfulThinker66]

I'm felling down, down, down, down.

[Succulents333]

Feeling very tired and emotionally drained. I see my psychologist on monday, there's only a few days left but it feels like forever.

[Rose76]

The momentum I got from yesterday's efforts us still with me. I've got to make the most if it. I should have the bedroom straightened out within the next 2 hours. The I'll feel so much better.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm feeling sad and depressed (more than usual) today. I have something stressful to do tomorrow that's social. It will probably be fun once I'm there and doing it, but I'm dreading it today. Today I feel unloved and uncared about and it stinks.

[Rose76]

Losing my momentum. Feel like going to bed for a nap. I'll take a Ritalin and see if I can push forward with things I have to do.

Didn't sleep well last night. I was talking to my friend last night and he made a comment that reminded me so much of my late father, who was abusive at times. My friend said, "you put things off". That's what my father used to say to me. It was about filling a person who will be taking my place at work while I'm gone next week. Thank goodness I never asked my friend to come with me on my trip. He has asked me many times if he could come with me. We'd end up killing each other.

This morning at work, I did fill in with the guy who will be taking my place while I'm away. It all went well. And I had prepared instructions for him.

Pretty good day at work and very busy. I'm having anxiety about my trip. It will be tomorrow! I might or might not post on here tonight. I plan to take my laptop with me, so I might post at where I'll be. Funny that there are times when I feel like cancelling the trip. I had already paid money to go.

I had a pretty good day today at work and a much better night tonight. Last night was not so good as there were a couple of guys in the pool area that ruined it for and my friend was being negative. Tonight, much better. The pool area was nice (I won't have that for the next few days now) and had a very nice talk with my friend tonight. My friend and his wife will take me to the airport tomorrow morning. I can't believe I'm doing this! This will be my first long trip away from home in six years! Tomorrow at this time, I'll be in another place!

another stressfull night, another day of nothing.

really no reason to look forward to today when their's really no reason to be here

oh well it's raining, I guess that's a start.. I do like the rain

[connect.the.stars]

My leg has developed a nasty rash and it constantly wakes me up in the middle of the night. I cannot sleep properly. I saw the dermatologist today and she prescribed me two strong creams and an oral antihistamine. I was hoping tonight I would be able to finally sleep through the night. But here I am at 3am...just trying so bad to distract my brain from thinking about how itchy I am because otherwise I will really want to scratch it even though that exacerbates the skin condition. I’m starting to feel like there is no solution to this.

[zapatoes]

Originally Posted by connect.the.stars

My leg has developed a nasty rash and it constantly wakes me up in the middle of the night. I cannot sleep properly. I saw the dermatologist today and she prescribed me two strong creams and an oral antihistamine. I was hoping tonight I would be able to finally sleep through the night. But here I am at 3am...just trying so bad to distract my brain from thinking about how itchy I am because otherwise I will really want to scratch it even though that exacerbates the skin condition. I’m starting to feel like there is no solution to this.

Sorry to hear this and hope it gets better soon! Unable to read about it since reading about someone being itchy makes me itchy.

[88Butterfly88]

Feeling depressed and sick and tired of everything.