[Rose76]

I feel sick, nauseated.

I wish I could get a break from caregiving.

[88Butterfly88]

Very depressed today.

[Rose76]

Still nauseated.

I have housework to catch up on, but I'm waiting for the nausea to go away. I think I need medical help.

It's been a very busy day today, just non-stop going. It seemed like the money was going very fast. I went to my friend's house to get some things from him that I need for my trip in two weeks. Next weekend I've got to get going on preparing for my trip.

[Rose76]

My fingernails are overgrown and ragged to go along with my generally unkempt appearance. The apartmeny needs some serious attention. I have to shove stuff over on the bed to make room for me to get in.

But I started cleaning this eve. I think I'll still be on a roll when I wake up. I'll redeem myself when I get up.

My guy and I got along okay today. We had a good supper.

[lilacsnow]

Hi, hope its okay to join here. Feeling depressed, only with medication I don't feel it as such so much as stop functioning at home and I realise that I haven't been keeping up with the cleaning and tidying. Also comfort eating increases. Idk, maybe I'm feeling angry or upset about something.

I went out last night, walking around. I do that once in a while. I'm having anxiety this morning. I woke thinking that in two weeks from now, I'll be waking up in a different place.

I have anxiety for a few reasons this morning. First of all, as I turn off the faucet on my bathroom sink I'm hearing a slight bang. It sounds like it's behind the wall. I just noticed it this morning. I think that it happened yesterday but not much. And I spent some time shopping and spending money to get things for my trip. I couldn't get everything I wanted. Well, there's still next weekend before the trip.

Also I was overhearing my downstairs neighbor talking to a couple of guys next door at a church. Yes, there is a church that's literally next door to me. She was upset with them with the way they managing their parking lot. That woman downstairs from me has a lot to complain about. I think that she's a chronic complainer. I wish that she and her husband would leave.

Can't sleep lately. Worried about where to live soon. Being angry over stupid things and then I feel worse. I need to change but I doubt that I will. I want off the meds, but I guess this is why my mood is messed up.

I lost the morning (time loss), came round in a lot of cronic pain

did a few basic things (tv, music, etc), but I'm really hurting so don't want to do much.

relaxing would be nice, but hell.. I can't do that

stupid body signals..

[regretful]

What makes matters worse is the inevitable blow-outs with my wife - I'm sure she's tired of my depression - I just don't like to hear about it.

Back to work and it wasn't too busy. A very gloomy day today. For some strange reason I got thinking negative thoughts for most of the day. I felt very depressed when I got up this morning. I don't know why. I feel very comfortable at my job.

I worked out after work and it went well.

yesterday wasn't good.

lost the morning to time loss, spent a lot of the afternoon in cronic pain and was just upset/ depressed about everything

after another night with no sleep... (surprise surprise)

anxiety is high- mood is, so so I guess, overeating is terrible, pain is... I guess manageable but could be better, and I'm not really up to much

I'm starting to feel a bit better and sleep a bit more. My antidepressant and anxiety pill are half the dose now, I feel good about that. I'm already taking lots of pills for other health reasons, and I'm pretty sure my antidepressant affects my blood sugar and makes my eyesight blurry. Hugs to the rest of you guys who are depressed and struggling.

[twistypringle98]

I am feeling so much better than I have in 26 years even though I don't know why that happened. Like Depekote just hit or something. My anti-anxiety flushed out those old things about why I couldn't get over some things too, and now I just feel better.

this morning I spent a good majority of the morning listening to one hit wonders and catchy songs.

in a musical kind of mood

that said, it is very hot outside, and the hot weather messes with my depression so bad- today would have probably been a good day if it wasn't for the weather

[Fuzzybear]

Grrrrrrrrrrr

I felt depressed and anxious for a good part of the day. I guess it's because I'm thinking a lot about my trip, which will be next week. I have a tendency to worry.

Some good things happened to me today. At work I was able to solve some problems with a couple of programs by myself. I thought that I would need some assistance. And then I got a good medical report on me.

I worked out and it went easy. It's nice and cool outside at night now. Just love this time of year now.

not really sure what to say....

in significant amounts of physical pain (back and legs), and depression quite bad too.

overeating is at it's all time worst, and sleeping is.... well. I don't even know what that means

sat here today watching toy story 2

my positive today is that I turned on the tv from the comfort of my chair

wooohoo

[Rose76]

I'm doing okay, more or less.

I have to do paperwork that I've let pile up. I get intimidated by piles of waiting paperwork.

I don't feel well, I think the reduction in meds is catching up with me. I feel stomach sick and my body hurts more. My ears are ringing terribly, but I'll try to ignore that like I've done most of my life. Its tempting to go back to a higher dose of meds, but not when I've come this far.

I'm still up in the air about where to live, son doesn't know if he's staying, but it looks like he's leaning towards getting his own place, with a friend that's not a good influence on him to say the least. I don't like getting older, but if it means finally having some peace about my kids then being old might be worth it. I'll always worry, but if he gets on a better path like my older son, that would relieve a lot of my anxiety.

I wasted the day, and its dark earlier and colder, I feel very depressed tonight.

Today hasn't been easy. I hate Tuesdays and Thursdays because my classes start super late, and without structure, I fall apart.
It started badly, I didn't get out of bed until 11:30, knowing that I had to get ready because I needed to do a few simple things: print notes, throw out the trash, and get my mail. I ended up only doing one of those things. I was almost late to my class at 3:30 because I was a sobbing heap on my bed and forgot I had to walk because my scooter broke.
Classes were okay, but lately, after I leave my first class I always feel exceptionally isolated and terrible, this is the third time in the past few weeks I've been on the verge of a breakdown after this class. I don't know what it is about it.
My studying is not happening today. I've been trying since 7, but I've been distracted by my own pitifulness. I'll probably try again in the morning.

[88Butterfly88]

Feeling less depressed than usual so far today.

I have been very stressed today

not been feeling great

[lilacsnow]

Feeling stressed - a close relation is now mentally and physically ill. Plus I made an error with my finances and I'm now significantly overdrawn and I have a long list of things which seem to be needed.

More positively - I wrote today.

Very busy day. The day didn't get off to a good start. Around midnight and throughout the night I was blowing my nose a lot. I don't know what caused it. I don't have a fever and I don't feel like I have a cold. I couldn't sleep very well.

I thought that my friend was going to come and visit me. We set up a deal that we can meet at where I go shopping, then he could come home with me. He just told me that I can't go home with me. He's just strange that way. I wish I had a better friend.

And a lot of thoughts going through my head about next week, going away. I've been having some anxiety about it.