so lately on my mood diary (perhaps in the last month/ 2 months), I've noticed that my moodd/ general outlook on life is never higher than a 4/5, which after some careful thinking about, is actually quite worrying

my issue is that I don't know how to raise it- the only 2 things that spring to mind are

food- though I don't enjoy food anyway (my cooking or someone else's), and even though my food's been particularly crap lately, I don't think it has much of an impact- never been a big food lover

sleep- which I don't get much of anyway, excluding the fact that doctors can't find a med that works and I can't lie down, I have a phobia of it (sort of)

the other thing that crossed my mind is my fibro, but then again.. I've lived with it for ages- I doubt it really matters.

maybe it's nature's way of saying..

Possible trigger:

life isn't going to get better, now's the time to exit

the other thing that sort of concerns me is that their's a song, heart failure by sixa.m, which I keep playing on repeat

Possible trigger:

I keep thinking it's a sign of an attempt, but I'm not sure

I even went as far to say to someone today that's the song that defines me

[captaineo]

Mate try to think positive thoughts for an hour I know it may sound impossible or science fiction but give that a shot.

I have those negative thoughts all the time but I think other people have it as well, but we all struggle like you and I. I have a sister who is in a far worse situation than you and I and I can tell because you still write like you have a problem, my sister believes there is no issue in her and just the world is problem, she has a horrible disorder and that broke my fathers and my soul when we found out. Sorry for digressing I am trying to say you are not alone, you are still better you and me need just to relearn to enjoy life. Blessings friend