I'm going off my meds

So, I'm pretty sure I'm going to take myself off my medication. I don't really see how it's helping and I'm tired of seeing a pdoc who genuinely doesn't give a ****. Oh, and has some of the worst advice I've seen someone attempt to offer. I might end up with another pdoc if I decide to go back on meds.

Who knows, maybe the meds are helping and I'm just oblivious to the change. It's perfectly possible, and hell, even likely. I could just be convincing myself to get off meds so I can go back to self-medicating without all of the side effects the AD and AP cause. I've developed a tremor and ticks due to the AP, I'm pretty sure. And with my AD, I'm going to have to get off of it for a time anyway come my surgery. It can't be mixed with pain medication and I'm not even going to kid myself by saying I don't think I'll need pain meds.

I don't know. I could be wrong by doing this, but I don't want a permanent tick and tremor (more than I already have). I also am sick of taking medication that reminds me I can't handle it all myself. I don't know why, maybe this is from my upbringing, but it makes me feel weak. I think I can handle being off medication and if I can't, I'll just go to the new pdoc and work it out.

Think seriously about this. It's a very important decision. Perhaps you just need a better pdoc... I just want you to be ok...

Please talk to your pdoc first. There are also meds that counteract tremors so maybe that is an option.

I plan on calling Monday to discuss going off of them. I do want to do this safely instead of abruptly quitting medication like I've done in the past.

I think I'll be okay. I've been considering this for a good while now and I don't believe there's a right or wrong choice. Just a choice. And I'll stay safe about it, if my head starts getting loopy or too far down, I'll meet up with a new pdoc to go over options. At this point, I'm more inclined to go through with ECT over putting more medicine in my system.

I wish you good luck

It might be good to set up an appointment with a new pdoc before you go off of the meds.

In some places there is a very long wait to see a pdoc. Is that true where you are?

Expect a mood crash and be safe please.

Not especially. Usually takes about a month.

I will be. Thanks TishaBuv, I'll look out for the crash if I go through with this.

You know WHY docs want us on all these meds?? Because they get REWARDED for doing so. I too want to go off all these meds.