[MtnTime2896]

I'm pretty shut down emotionally right now. I have been for about a week now. So much happened, so much hurt and now I'm just here. What's the point in living like this?

Other things have transpired in my head. An increase in flashbacks isn't helping. I go from feeling way too much, to feeling way too down, to feeling absolutely nothing. It's like an emotional overload causing a shut down. And this shut down is killing me.

[fallaximago]

I think I know what you mean. I've gone from bouts of the gloomiest depression you can think of to merely "meh" moments. This is one of them. I never feel comfortable, though, just less depressed. Are you still able to do what you like, what gives you pleasure?

[MtnTime2896]

Not really. I don't care to do much.

[fallaximago]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Not really. I don't care to do much.

Then we're truly on the same boat. I haven't found my true passion yet and I'm starting to think that maybe I'll never find it. I'm just going through the motions. I really hate that I can't help you. I should probably focus on my physical wellbeing but I also feel pressed to do something valuable with my life. It's hell. I don't know whether this is actually worth something, but you have my friendship.

I wish I could help, but I've no idea how I can help you.

[Fuzzybear]

((((( So leigheas )))))

[downandlonely]

I'm sorry So. Do you have anyone in real life you can talk to about this?

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by downandlonely

I'm sorry So. Do you have anyone in real life you can talk to about this?

Outside of my T, not really. And I don't see him until next Wednesday. While I do see my pdoc next Tuesday, I have yet to trust him since I can see he doesn't really care at all.

[katydid777]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Outside of my T, not really. And I don't see him until next Wednesday. While I do see my pdoc next Tuesday, I have yet to trust him since I can see he doesn't really care at all.

I have this problem with my T, and P. Doc, part bc of time/ schedule, an d part bc of $. I feel down almost all the time, In the last year I can't say I have had a happy day, I also don't have a support group. Just my T, bc my P. Doc don't care, but I also have all of you! If you need to talk/vent PM me. (((((((VERY MANY BIG HUGS)))))))

[downandlonely]

Where I live, there are free support groups with people for mental illnesses that can help a lot. If you're in the US, check out dbsa.org and nami.org to find one.

I'm sorry you feel like your pdoc doesn't care. Are you compliant with your medication? I think if you've been taking it regularly and it's not working for you, you need to tell the pdoc. Or maybe find a new one.

[MtnTime2896]

I'm really good at taking my meds, better than I have been in the past. They don't seem to be doing anything for me, though. I'll check out those support groups if I think I can.

Thanks katydid, I might take you up on that.

[downandlonely]

I have always been good about taking my meds too. But I have noticed with anti-depressants that sometimes they work really well for a few years and then stop working. When that happens, I need to see a pdoc and switch to another med. If they're really not helping, please let the pdoc know.

"My Pdoc doesn't seem to care."

With my own experience and knowledge of scientific methodology, I can tell you psychiatrists are supposed to be like Sherlock Holmes. They help us, but don't attach emotions to us, as to prevent judgement "clouding." My psychiatrist too, only analyzes me and calculates the doses of meds, going not too far from the traditional doctor's method of prescribing meds and telling lifestyle changes, he doesn't care what I am going through, through my own perspective. Just like House. It's the same everywhere.


It's convienent to say those who make a career in science, might want to be helpful and be caring and compassionate and all, but they at least don't want their emotions to be apparent.

[downandlonely]

Well it is true that some psychiatrists seem warmer and more caring than others. When I first moved to this city, I had a psychiatrist who seemed really cold and dismissive. I found one who actually listens to me and talks to me for half an hour (most psychiatrists seem to do only about 10 to 15 minutes)

If you feel your psychiatrist doesn't care, I would try searching for another one.

It actually depends upon their methods, but they don't really seem to care. That's what I think.

[MtnTime2896]

I'm probably going to look for a new one.