[Humpty Dumpty]

There comes a point in time when you have to take responsibility for your own actions. I was never abused or mistreated. There is no reason I am the way I am. Bottom line is I am this way because I'm weak. I'm a grown who has a hard time controlling his emotions. Often times my emotions would come out in anger. The primary trigger for that was video games so as much as I didn't want to I removed a lot of that from my life. Now I'm nothing but a cry baby. I cry over nothing. Things that I should just be sad about (death of a mother in law that I wasn't fond of, death of an uncle I didn't know well) I end up crying about. I act like a little kid just seeking attention. I am always making excuses as to why I am this way and why treatment doesn't work. As I was told "If I really was sorry I would change" so I guess I just want to stay miserable.

[Merlin]

Maybe a portion of it is a predisposition to a crippling mental illness. You don’t need to be abused or mistreated to become depressed.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((( Humpty Dumpty ))))))))

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Merlin

Maybe a portion of it is a predisposition to a crippling mental illness. You don’t need to be abused or mistreated to become depressed.

Agreed!

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

The primary trigger for that was video games....

Video games are a primary trigger. Can they be the cause or a cause? What's behind the trigger? (No need to answer the questions.)

[Fuzzybear]

I agree with Rohag’s quote of @Merlin post.

I was wanting to say something similar

(But often my words don’t come out as “well” as some people’s do
Even when I spend ages and edit and ...... maybe that’s my “avoidant” ...
Much as I’d love to say I’m “stupid” and my self esteem and inner snake tell me I’m “worthless” ... well I’m not “stupid”

(Sigh) one of my many “flaws” .... my posts often / sometimes are rants

Sorry this is “about me” ... no need to respond to it... I guess I somewhat relate ... my snake has been telling me I’m “weak” etc a lot lately It’s lies but she loves to spout the venom the abusers fed her

As I’ve probably said many times, I don’t think you or anyone here are weak - as said above Depression is a crippling mental illness whether or not abuse is a contributing factor

You have friends here who care about you Humpty Dumpty

(Tbh I sometimes think of just isolating and not posting at all... but I don’t do that because there are people here who are “true” and you’re one of those I care about and respect

Hugs to all in this thread

[Fuzzybear]

^^
I’m going to insult the paws... and for the record if I’ve ever posted a “yawn” before it’s about me and how I WAS feeling about me.... as in tired... to nobody in particular... I’ve been misunderstood since the day I was born...

But the paws deserves a big fat

Stick to hugs paws, ok?

Paws inner snake, please ignore me everyone else does

(( Humpty Dumpty ))

Sorry about my **** in your thread, I mean no harm but please ask a mod to delete my post if it’s not helpful,

[Humpty Dumpty]

Fuzzy you are more than welcome to rant about yourself or others on my threads. It's not like I haven't done the same. I just hope it helps you to some extent.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Rohag videogames are not the cause for my anger just merely the easiest Outlet for it. It has always been that way. Even as a small boy playing the original Nintendo. My anger tends to seep out in other ways since I don't play video games as much. I just call my self an A-hole because of it. That's much easier to explain, than I'm F'd up in the head and have anger issues.

[Humpty Dumpty]

Originally Posted by Merlin

Maybe a portion of it is a predisposition to a crippling mental illness. You don’t need to be abused or mistreated to become depressed.

All too often I am made to feel like you have to have a reason to be depressed. The 1st time I went to a Dr about my depression then a mental hospital I felt like I had to make up a reason for being a depressed cry baby. So I did. I lied. Otherwise I wasn't going to be taken seriously. Afterall I was only seeking attention.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Humpty Dumpty

All too often I am made to feel like you have to have a reason to be depressed. The 1st time I went to a Dr about my depression then a mental hospital I felt like I had to make up a reason for being a depressed cry baby. So I did. I lied. Otherwise I wasn't going to be taken seriously. Afterall I was only seeking attention.

To me, this is really a problem when people are wrongly labelled and when providers, for whatever reason, appear not to have empathy. Too often there is a “just” or an “only” .... ah I could rant for ever and it wouldn’t change much... or would it... is it really ok to be silenced etc by providers “cry baby” or not (and I was called that as a young cub) your pain is real, and so is mine. That is not “attention seeking”. And severe

Possible trigger:

Su ideation is most definitely not “attention seeking”

Knowing the problem.... admitting to it even.... sounds like a huge step in the right direction to me.