terrible fibro pain bringing down my all ready low mood.

urg. why are weekends so hard

[Rose76]

My S.O. is back in the hospital. Since leaving the hospital last night, I have felt very unwell. I've been in bed all day today. I feel unwell mentally and physically, but I think it's all mental and a result of feeling like I can't cope.

[Deilla]

I feel Okay today. I reached out to some friends I hadn't talked to in a while. It was nice.

I feel like there are no intelligent people to have conversations with. Podcasts help. But I feel lonely in my life experiences.

Today was a better day than yesterday. I got a call from my sister and we had a good talk. It doesn't happen all of the time. And then my friend called me this afternoon and I had not heard from him in a while. However, as of now, I got a little set back on the medical news for me. But it's happened before.

Yesterday was not a great day. Very alone. I watched a movie last night and it wasn't very good.

[Rose76]

Slept about 2 hours total. I don't know how I'm going to get through this day . . . . . but time will pass regardless . . . . and the day will become part of the past.

A slow and draggy day at work today. Other than that I've been feeling alright emotionally. Last night I called me friend to give him the news of my medical result that was not great for me. Apparently, I guess, I roused him from his sleep. It seemed like he was struggling to talk and that got me very depressed.

I haven't got a clue how to handle how I feel.

[bpcyclist]

Slept just a wee bit more last night. SI is a bit better today, which is great.

[Deilla]

I feel good today. I actually got out a couple of times. Once to pick up meds and another time to shop at Publix. I haven't been inside a grocery store in 3 years. I was able to shop for 15 minutes with minimal pain. I got myself some really nice stuff.

[SlumberKitty]

Pretty depressed today.

[3rd rock]

I can't file my taxes for last year because I can't find my slips sent by my employer. I filed for medical/disability benefits with the government, because my union's benefits have run out. I hope they will pay me a sum that's at least equal to the weekly payments given to me by my union. If not, and it probably will be less, then I'll have to return to work soon, even though I'm medically unwell, because I won't be able to afford to keep on living unless I return to work.

In related matters, my income from writing remains at a very low ebb. I've exceeded $100 CAD this month, but not by much. I used to be making almost $500 CAD per month at my peak. It's very depressing to fail so abjectly.

I can't even think or feel. Just constant confusion. I wish I could know how and what I should do. I regret so much right now, but I also feel very used.

[Deilla]

I feel Okay today. I slept a while. I think that is helpful. Normally I have trouble with sleep. But it's been going well these past few days.

[Rose76]

I got through today. Going to sleep now.

[Deilla]

I was really tired this morning. I did have plans to go out to eat but I cancelled. I didn't feel well. Doing better now. I think I need a nap though.

[3rd rock]

I'm afraid of the way things are turning out. I have only two choices: return to work and work as much as possible despite the high stress, hostile work environment and the severe, chronic mental illness that only gets worse all the time, or, well, you know. I can't find another job and I can't increase my pitiful income from writing. I'm being driven to do one of two things I can't do.

[sky457]

sick today....in a long distance relationship....its really great, but it is straining

[Deilla]

I'm stressed this morning. Two things I tried today didn't work out. I'm frustrated. I'm trying not to let it affect my mood.

Not a wink of sleep. I cant continue like this. If I had any idea of how to make things better I'd be ok. But I accept that this is the way it is for now. Hugs to all struggling here

[3rd rock]

So tired. Getting up this early is pointless.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm sort of okay. I am a little more depressed than usual but not depressed enough to do much about it. Having SH thoughts, but that's pretty normal for me. Work is boring today and I am just waiting for the weekend. Finally got around to doing the homework for Pastor T. That was totally lame though. I'm kind of bored at the moment.

I move in a week. I am feeling overwhelmed. idk what to do about my bed. if I buy her bed it is a little cheaper than hiring a mover. on the other hand I. could sweat it out and figure out how to take apart my bed and rent a truck for cheaper. I wish I had friends to help me. but I'm alone. and I am always so tired on the weekend due to my harsh schedule. idk if I'll be up to taking apart the bed. and I have to clean my apartment and I'm just so overwhelmed by that too.

I am nervous about the roommates. I hope it will be a good situation. the more I think about it the less good they seem. I hate my life.

[Rose76]

My Sig. Other is very sick in the hospital. I'm so worried I might lose him.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Rose76 I hope he will be okay.