[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

Is that a good thing?

Not really. This is pointless and I'm terrible at it. The only thing I'm good at, and I'm no good at it.

Very slow at work today. It made the time go by so slow. After work I took my bike to a repair shop. I liked the service guy right away. Got an estimate and it was unbelievably inexpensive. I used to go to another bike shop when I lived at the other place and they would do a lot of work and charged a lot. So we'll see how this will work out.

Today was probably the first day in a long time that I didn't do anything after work, at least exercising. It felt weird. I won't be bike riding after work for a while because of the sun setting early.

Also I had been looking online for band resistance - that will be in place of the weights that I used to do. It seems overwhelming to decide what to get and I'm not very clear on how it works. I got rid of all of the weights and the bench. It felt very bad at first but I think I'm over it.

[Deilla]

I feel Okay this morning. I'm trying to sleep but I keep waking up. It's a little frustrating. I'm going to try to stay up for a little bit and do something fun. I'll need more sleep eventually. I see my med provider today.

[mote.of.soul]

Been in a low, a depression, for the past five hours but I'm climbing out. Had to sleep for two of those hours - just couldn't take it.

Certain things trigger me to a deep inner rage, humiliation, despair and suicidal thoughts of 'I'm done with this. I want to leave now' - all exacerbated by my bad social anxiety [probably Avoidant Personality Disorder, actually]. Day in and day out. Year in and year out! Haha, oh my goodness.

Peace & Love to you fellow fighters.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

@Buffy01 sorry you're feeling down. Yea, a distraction would be good. Try to do something fun and take care of yourself. Hope you feel better soon. (safe hugs)

I need to figured out what to do that is fun at home since I have trouble getting around. I wish that I knew why I feel so down.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

Not really. This is pointless and I'm terrible at it. The only thing I'm good at, and I'm no good at it.

I'm sorry that you feel low.

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear Beloved PC Comembers, I feel so sad listening to what you're going through. I can only offer my love & condolences. I also identify with so much of what you say. So, we are not alone! We have each other! God bless all of you! Lots of hugs to you all!! With love.

[puzzclar]

Another sad day. I can barely focus. I've been home for one week and already not where I need to be. I need support. I need to stop using my addictive behaviors. I need to get my studying in.

Here I sit, and I need to workout but my hip hurts and I don't want to do anything to upset the hip.

Needless to say I hate life.

[Spirit of Trees]

I'm tired of having to initiate to see or talk any of my friends. Maybe the few friends I have are sick of me - sick of the depressed/anxious me. I want to believe the lack of contact isn't intentional, but the more I think about it, the more likely it seems that most of my friendships have reached their expiry date :c

[mote.of.soul]

Not a happy camper right now. Doesn't seem to be a day goes by without something breaking me. It's not good when you don't look forward to tomorrow.

Peace & Love. Got to hold on to something.

[Deilla]

I feel pretty good this morning. I slept for 7 hours last night. When I woke up early, I just made myself stay in bed. It was uncomfortable for a little while but I fell back asleep. Have to keep trying to do that. I have so much energy and enthusiasm today. It's really nice for a change.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm so glad for you, Deilla! I hope you have a wonderful day!

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I'm really starting to like this current book I'm writing. I think it will be worth reading. I will have it done by the end of the year, as I'm deliberately writing it much shorter than my previous works.

That great.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really down I'm the past two days.

[jrae]

less than six hours into my day and it's tanked due to the insensitive remarks and degrading comments of two people! now I want to crawl back into my hole and not come out for a while! [wish I could un-hear what I heard ]

[Rose76]

I have a very sore throat. Plus, my PCP called to tell me labs show I'm seriously anemic. I guess both are reasons I'm so awful tired.

My S.O. is in the rehab/nursing home. I want to bring him home soon, but a couple more days might help me recover.

[mote.of.soul]

Well, I'm in the upside of the 'Up's & Downs' for now, so I'm 'happy' about that. Just moderately depressed. No thoughts to end it. Enjoying the peace that nighttime brings.

Fight on Brothers & Sisters and together we can stay on a better path.

[88Butterfly88]

I'm depressed today.

[Rose76]

Sick with cold symptoms. I feel rotten.

[Deilla]

I feel Okay today. I'm just resting and handling a few necessary things.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm really struggling today.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm ok. - I'm so sorry you aren't doing well today, SlumberKitty. Lots of love to you!!

This is a start of my weekend. For some strange reason I had elected to come to work on Monday and it's a holiday. The package carriers will be working that day. I wish that it was going to be a full holiday for us. It was going to and then the company changed it's mind. They've done that before.

Nothing planned for this weekend other than cleaning tomorrow morning and shopping afterwards. I seem like that part, but when it's over, then the weekend goes downhill emotionally for me.

I hope my friend and I will get together. But we're squabbling about who's coming over to who's place. He says that he can't come over because he's not able to and then I don't like going to his place because I don't feel comfortable there. As for me, I wouldn't feel comfortable if we just went halfway to meet. Maybe we might split up because of this. I am getting tired of him anyways and I think that he feels the same way about me. It's going to be hard to lose the only friend I've got. I hate to lose him but it's really hard to make friends.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by will19

This is a start of my weekend. For some strange reason I had elected to come to work on Monday and it's a holiday. The package carriers will be working that day. I wish that it was going to be a full holiday for us. It was going to and then the company changed it's mind. They've done that before.

Nothing planned for this weekend other than cleaning tomorrow morning and shopping afterwards. I seem like that part, but when it's over, then the weekend goes downhill emotionally for me.

I hope my friend and I will get together. But we're squabbling about who's coming over to who's place. He says that he can't come over because he's not able to and then I don't like going to his place because I don't feel comfortable there. As for me, I wouldn't feel comfortable if we just went halfway to meet. Maybe we might split up because of this. I am getting tired of him anyways and I think that he feels the same way about me. It's going to be hard to lose the only friend I've got. I hate to lose him but it's really hard to make friends.

@will19, sorry you are struggling with meeting your friend. Have you thought about meeting online and chatting while ya'll watch a movie or something. There's a place where you create a virtual meeting spot:

Watch2Gether - Watch Videos. Together.

I worked with it a little bit. It's pretty cool. I was going to watch videos with a friend of mine but he decided he didn't want to. You can also listen to music and shop Amazon.

I hope things work out for you two.

[mote.of.soul]

Quite depressed right now. About how volatile and paranoid my social anxiety makes me. And how it robs me of joy. And if being robbed of joy and being paranoid and volatile wasn't enough - how does that make me feel? Depressed! Effin great. Yes, I'm on meds.