I'm feeling very alone and negative. I do my best but it's like it's worth crap.

[Deilla]

I feel fairly content at the moment. I just did some art. That always helps me to feel better. And my kitties came to visit me this morning.

[Sunflower123]

I was very tired yesterday and a bit down. I’m feeling more enervated and positive today. Hallelujah!

Feeling down this morning. Sunday mornings are the worst for me for some reason. I was going to do some cleaning this morning but some unexpected things came up. So I have decided to put off cleaning until next Saturday. I didn't feel like it anyways.

I've spoken to my friend about getting together but I doubt very much that he will come to my place. He's expecting me to always go to his place or do what he wants to do and never coming to my place or do what I want to do. I feel like it's not fair! He says that he has limits physically but yet he can take trips to Europe no problem. There's a pretty good transportation systems at where I live. I'm getting disgusted. He depresses me a lot but I hate to lose him because he's all that I have.

[3rd rock]

This next book will be my third novel to feature some form of depression. This time, it's a new mother, one of the two main characters, who experiences profound post-partum depression. I need to try and move away from this theme beginning with the next novel, in order to expand the emotional and psychological range of my characters.

[Breaking Dawn]

Like the title says, ups & downs. Much of the time I'm doing really well. Hugs to all of you!!

Another weekend of not much. Just took a 3 hour bike ride today. Went by my old place where I used to live. My friend wrote to me saying, "someday I will come over to your place". I don't know what that means exactly. I wish I had another friend.

My sister called this morning and we had a nice talk. She was sick last week, which was why she didn't call. She sounded a bit under the weather today. She mentioned to me about possibly moving to where she is. I told her that I prefer not to hear about it because I have no interest in moving to that area.

Feeling down now. I feel like I don't like where I live. I don't know where I could move to. I'd rather not move to a strange area and not know anybody and be alone. But I feel like I am alone where I am now. So it probably wouldn't make any difference if I relocated somewhere else and not know anybody.

[puzzclar]

Originally Posted by will19

Another weekend of not much. Just took a 3 hour bike ride today. Went by my old place where I used to live. My friend wrote to me saying, "someday I will come over to your place". I don't know what that means exactly. I wish I had another friend.

My sister called this morning and we had a nice talk. She was sick last week, which was why she didn't call. She sounded a bit under the weather today. She mentioned to me about possibly moving to where she is. I told her that I prefer not to hear about it because I have no interest in moving to that area.

Feeling down now. I feel like I don't like where I live. I don't know where I could move to. I'd rather not move to a strange area and not know anybody and be alone. But I feel like I am alone where I am now. So it probably wouldn't make any difference if I relocated somewhere else and not know anybody.

Sometimes you have to make an effort to find friends. I know it's tough, I don't have too many friends myself. There are groups online to join that meet in real life.

I finished the body of my superhero that I am crocheting. It's a doll, just in case superhero didn't make sense. I've had an up day which is better than where I was a week ago. I need to go to activities more and get less lonely but it's hard.

I need to do more but I only have so much time and money. But I waste time anyway on negative things. I need to change.

[Deilla]

I'm having trouble sleeping. And I feel a little sick. I accidentally ate some cheese that had mold on part of it. I'm really grossed out. I'm trying to think of other things, but it's difficult. Maybe my coffee will help.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm having trouble sleeping. And I feel a little sick. I accidentally ate some cheese that had mold on part of it. I'm really grossed out. I'm trying to think of other things, but it's difficult. Maybe my coffee will help.

How are you feeling?

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

How are you feeling?

My stomach feels good. My coffee and reading helped re-center me. My evening is a little lonely but not too bad. Thanks for asking! I hope you are doing well tonight.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Deilla

My stomach feels good. My coffee and reading helped re-center me. My evening is a little lonely but not too bad. Thanks for asking! I hope you are doing well tonight.

I am. Thank you!

It was pretty busy during the morning at work today. In the afternoon it died down. Feeling a bit depressed today. After work I did the laundry and it went well. Not a single hitch this time like other times. And then I got a bit of good news as I don't have to pay for the electric bill this month.

[3rd rock]

It's the only hope I have for life, and there's no hope for it at all. I can't tell what to do.

[Sunflower123]

Doing well today. Beautiful, sunny weather always helps.

[3rd rock]

Nobody's going to help me. Nobody's going to give me a free lunch. Nobody's ever going to stand up for me and argue how deplorable it is that I've got such a history of psychiatric problems that aren't effectively treated. Nobody's going to ever talk about all the obstacles that've been put in my path since I was born. And if I ever make it, it'll be all on my own, and still I'll get lectured by people who don't know anything about me that I've supposedly been handed everything in my life.

[Buffy01]

I feel really down tonight.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

Nobody's going to help me. Nobody's going to give me a free lunch. Nobody's ever going to stand up for me and argue how deplorable it is that I've got such a history of psychiatric problems that aren't effectively treated. Nobody's going to ever talk about all the obstacles that've been put in my path since I was born. And if I ever make it, it'll be all on my own, and still I'll get lectured by people who don't know anything about me that I've supposedly been handed everything in my life.

I'm sorry that you are struggling right now.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Not much of an exciting weekend, even though I was busy both days. Today I put my weights together and packed them in my car. Someone at where I work wants to buy it. Unfortunately I was not able to put my bench in the car, since it doesn't fit. The buyer, I guess, doesn't really care if he gets the bench or not. But I wanted to get rid of it. This is kind of sad that after some 25 years, those weights are going to be out of my life. And it's all because of my neighbor having to complain about it.

I went for a three hour bike ride today.

Another dull weekend is about to come to an end. I dread going to work on Mondays, but I don't know why? I like my job. It seems like it's at work where I really have a social life. I guess that's the way it is for some people.

Do you feel relief getting rid of the weight.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by the walls

I’m so tired.

I understand I feel tired myself.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

My current project will be finished by the end of November. My next project will be started on at that time.

Is that a good thing?

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Turtle_Rider

It's been awful for the last couple week. I failed to get a bigger job. Next, our division got into a big trouble because one member carelessly responded to a spam email. It seems like we're going to lose everything and have to start all over again. And now, I just heard that a good coworker will be fired soon.

Home is worse. I got into more arguments with my parents, from a very small matter to big one. The fight worsens every day.

I wish I could run away somewhere.

I'm sorry that you had to go through that.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Some feelings of depression and dissociation. Some feelings of not wanting to be here. Mostly just trying to get distracted and not be hard on myself. Kind of bored today too. Tomorrow should be a busy day at work though.

Perhaps I should probably distract myself.

[Deilla]

@Buffy01 sorry you're feeling down. Yea, a distraction would be good. Try to do something fun and take care of yourself. Hope you feel better soon. (safe hugs)

[stahrgeyzer]

I feel like a bulldozer ran over me then backed up.