Daily Check In Thread: Ups & Downs #27

puzzclar · Oct 11, 2019 at 11:52 AM

Last one is over 100 pages here's a new one

puzzclar · Oct 11, 2019 at 11:55 AM

I'm mostly down today.... And I want to email my T but that is something I don't really want. I know my safety is an issue and I know the plan but gosh darn it I don't like the plan

SlumberKitty · Oct 11, 2019 at 02:59 PM

I'm feeling sad today. And I'm feeling useless and like I'm a waste of space. I'm sure that it is just the depression talking but it feels real.

3rd rock · Oct 11, 2019 at 07:02 PM

Last one only at 54 pages in default view.

Oct 11, 2019 at 08:01 PM

I haven't been this beaten by life in a long time.

Oct 11, 2019 at 10:42 PM

My stomach always seems to be upset.

Oct 11, 2019 at 10:49 PM

Things have been out of control. Need to remember to control myself. I don’t really know how to deal with it except the usual issue, self injury. I think things have been really bad lately. I need to remember that I cannot pull it all off without some serious control. Ive been overemotional, made big mistakes, and feel disgusting about my overall self and have no idea what others see. Probably an unkempt angry person who is too arrogant for where they’re at. I don’t know what’s going on with my body, it’s never been great. I wish I were still prepubescent. I feel disgusting.

Oct 11, 2019 at 10:56 PM

Yesterday a guy in the department above me said he thinks I’d fit in there. It’s not like he really knows me well...

Today I looked at the women who are in that department and they are so classy and polished. True they are about 30years old. But I feel like I’m pretty much at my mid 20s now and I still can’t brush my hair daily. Sure maybe it’s because of depression but really it’s not a good look. My mother used to yell at me about my appearance. I probably won’t get promoted for my lack of social skills, lack of self presentation. It’s really not ok.

bpcyclist · Oct 12, 2019 at 05:57 AM

Not sleeping, like, one minute last night. Worried about how today is going to go, since I am so very sleep-sensitive. We will see...

Rose76 · Oct 12, 2019 at 09:02 PM

I'm doing pretty okay.

puzzclar · Oct 12, 2019 at 09:28 PM

I don't like distraction.... I'm tired of keeping myself distracted. I'm tired of a lot of things. Yet I keep going. I'm down a lot and there has been no relief. Hopefully relief will come soon. But I doubt it.

Oct 12, 2019 at 09:50 PM

I was extremely busy this morning. Did a lot of cleaning this morning. My place really needed the cleaning after not doing it for three weeks. And lots of places to go for shopping and stuff.

Been feeling very down late this afternoon and tonight. For some reason, it seems like the people at where I live seem to have it more together than I do. I feel like I'm the only lonely fool at my place. There were times of extensive noise just outside my door. The couple next to me had a grandchild over and the kid was very loud.

puzzclar · Oct 13, 2019 at 10:24 AM

Depressed, still! Not really any change but I'm a bit less sui. But I still want to go to the er. Isn't it weird that I want to go when I don't necessarily need to.

Rose76 · Oct 13, 2019 at 04:02 PM

I'm still doing pretty good.

Oct 13, 2019 at 07:25 PM

Not much of an exciting weekend, even though I was busy both days. Today I put my weights together and packed them in my car. Someone at where I work wants to buy it. Unfortunately I was not able to put my bench in the car, since it doesn't fit. The buyer, I guess, doesn't really care if he gets the bench or not. But I wanted to get rid of it. This is kind of sad that after some 25 years, those weights are going to be out of my life. And it's all because of my neighbor having to complain about it.

I went for a three hour bike ride today.

Another dull weekend is about to come to an end. I dread going to work on Mondays, but I don't know why? I like my job. It seems like it's at work where I really have a social life. I guess that's the way it is for some people.

Buffy01 · Oct 13, 2019 at 08:05 PM

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Originally Posted by puzzclar

I'm mostly down today.... And I want to email my T but that is something I don't really want. I know my safety is an issue and I know the plan but gosh darn it I don't like the plan

I understand how you feel!

Buffy01 · Oct 13, 2019 at 08:06 PM

My emotions has been up and down throughout the day!

Buffy01 · Oct 13, 2019 at 08:10 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

I'm feeling sad today. And I'm feeling useless and like I'm a waste of space. I'm sure that it is just the depression talking but it feels real.

I understand how you feel! I feel the same way lately

Buffy01 · Oct 13, 2019 at 08:12 PM

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Originally Posted by 2daffodils

I haven't been this beaten by life in a long time.

I wish I could feel that way!

Buffy01 · Oct 13, 2019 at 08:18 PM

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Originally Posted by the walls

My stomach always seems to be upset.

I understand! I don't know why my stomach becoming upset whenever I am feeling depressed or have anxiety. I thought I was the only one who did that!

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puzzclar Elder Member Since Jan 2010 Location: Where? US Posts: 5,621 14 101 hugs given	Oct 11, 2019 at 11:52 AM #1 Last one is over 100 pages here's a new one

puzzclar Elder Member Since Jan 2010 Location: Where? US Posts: 5,621 14 101 hugs given	Oct 11, 2019 at 11:55 AM #2 I'm mostly down today.... And I want to email my T but that is something I don't really want. I know my safety is an issue and I know the plan but gosh darn it I don't like the plan

SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 6 117.7k hugs given	Oct 11, 2019 at 02:59 PM #3 I'm feeling sad today. And I'm feeling useless and like I'm a waste of space. I'm sure that it is just the depression talking but it feels real. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA

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Anonymous445852 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 11, 2019 at 08:01 PM #5 I haven't been this beaten by life in a long time.

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bpcyclist Legendary Member Since Sep 2019 Location: Portland Posts: 12,681 (SuperPoster!) 5 40.2k hugs given	Oct 12, 2019 at 05:57 AM #9 Not sleeping, like, one minute last night. Worried about how today is going to go, since I am so very sleep-sensitive. We will see... __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield

Rose76 Legendary Member Since Mar 2011 Location: USA Posts: 12,664 (SuperPoster!) 13 5,491 hugs given	Oct 12, 2019 at 09:02 PM #10 I'm doing pretty okay.

puzzclar Elder Member Since Jan 2010 Location: Where? US Posts: 5,621 14 101 hugs given	Oct 12, 2019 at 09:28 PM #11 I don't like distraction.... I'm tired of keeping myself distracted. I'm tired of a lot of things. Yet I keep going. I'm down a lot and there has been no relief. Hopefully relief will come soon. But I doubt it.

puzzclar Elder Member Since Jan 2010 Location: Where? US Posts: 5,621 14 101 hugs given	Oct 13, 2019 at 10:24 AM #13 Depressed, still! Not really any change but I'm a bit less sui. But I still want to go to the er. Isn't it weird that I want to go when I don't necessarily need to.

Rose76 Legendary Member Since Mar 2011 Location: USA Posts: 12,664 (SuperPoster!) 13 5,491 hugs given	Oct 13, 2019 at 04:02 PM #14 I'm still doing pretty good.

Buffy01 Legendary Member Since Oct 2017 Location: USA Posts: 10,164 (SuperPoster!) 7 10.1k hugs given	Oct 13, 2019 at 08:06 PM #17 My emotions has been up and down throughout the day!