this new perfume comercial is getting on my nerves

a bunch of women displaying themselves on screen saying that they are perfect

really affects my BDD. I hate it, and wish these comercials wern't allowed

rant over

Found something I’d like to try again. Then someone took it away from me. Not riskay or too safe but just right. Sad about my naïvetéy and how again my insecurities meddle with my relationships.

I’m also feeling up to forgiving myself today for my offensive behavior and lack of sensitivity which I sometimes don’t take the time to refine. Lost a close friend of mine on Thursday and I will miss everything about him but mostly his fluffy tail and tiny nose.

Taking a coffee break right now from cleaning & laundry. Last night my internet connection was down. I had forgotten the phone number of the customer service, but then I remembered. I was on the phone for a half hour and all it turned out was a simple task. So glad to be in the internet now.

After lunch I plan on shopping. I'll check out the store I go to on the lines they may have. The last time I went shopping after lunch, that store had a very long line. If it's still that way now, then I'll have to go tomorrow morning. This will be the first time for me going shopping after lunch in about three to four months.

[tigerlily84]

Feeling exhausted and generally not well emotionally. I hope that this headache goes away soon. Yesterday I found out that my state denied my disability claim because the doctor's office accidentally marked "no" where they asked if I was a current patient. I was told that this can by cleared up over the phone but the doctor's office has to speak with someone from the disability office. I have no idea if this has been done. I was on the phone all day yesterday trying to get this cleared up.

[Mountaindewed]

My depression is under control today. I know I’m doing everything I can regarding covid and everything else is out of my control. As for my seasonal depression I can feel it looming but it’s still not here yet. At least not full blown.

Well, I did the shopping this afternoon instead of in the early mornings (around 8) which I had been doing in the last three or four months. So far today it went pretty well. There was only a two to three minute wait to get into the store. Not bad! The last time I did that, I waited for 45 minutes. So I think that I will go with this routine now, like the way it used to be.

Unfortunately when I got back from shopping, I had an encounter with a neighbor near me that didn't go well. She has a small dog and there are times that she plays with the dog on the walkway - throwing a small rope in which the dog and her are running back and fourth. I told that woman that the manager at my place is very strict about letting dogs run loose. I had come out of the elevator and almost got hit by that rope that she threw. She apologized but then said what she's doing is not wrong. The thing that annoys me the most is that this goes on a lot and she's very noisy and it happens right outside my door, when I want to relax. So I feel bad that I had to confront a neighbor.

[3rd rock]

I'm in an abusive relationship with life. It keeps beating the hell out of me, and I'm too much of a coward to leave. - Homer Simpson

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by puzzclar

I received communication from extended family who lives closer. My Grandma is struggling to make the decision to live or die. She doesn't want to be blind and she has heart, kidney and fluid issues. I want to see her one more time but due to this dumb virus, I'm worried. It's starting to affect my mood more, on top of everything else. I'm swamped, I don't know what I want in life and feeling only semi-safe. I"m scared for a lot of reasons and I feel like I need more time with T to digest it all. Will Thursday come faster, PLEASE! Thursday is when I see my T.

I'm sorry to hear that.

[Rose76]

It seems I really have gotten past the depression I was in due to grief over losing my sig. other. I don't get way down like was happening. What an improvement! I don't go around wishing I was dead anymore . . . not since Sept 15.

However, I've got no ambition. I sit around watching TV or reading online.

I'm not heartbroken with grief like I was. But I sure miss sharing daily life with someone I love. It feels like nothing much matters to me anymore. I miss him so much. I miss the togetherness. I miss just being able to look at him. I loved his face. He was beautiful.

[Breaking Dawn]

I think I'm doing pretty good. I wish I could improve my progress with accomplishing small goals. I want so much to be out of the woods & be proud of myself for finally overcoming my obstacles.

[Deilla]

I'm doing well this morning. I'm just distracting myself with an online game. The weather is nice too and the two kitties are happy!

Not much of a day today, but I guess that's alright. Just did some light cleaning this morning. Talked to my sister in the later part of the morning and it went alright. After that I had lunch and it was a bit of a disappointment. It didn't come out good for some reason. After that I went on a fairly long bike ride. It was a nice day for it, though a bit warmer than I wanted.

[Sunflower123]

Doing fairly well today. I got a lot done which always helps including something that had been overdue for some time.

[childofchaos831]

Depression is awful today...

[Breaking Dawn]

For the most part, everything is going along pretty good.

[Nitrous]

Started taking a stimulant for weight loss, and my mood has been amazing. I feel so good. Not manic, just happy.

I can't begin tto explain how depressed I feel.

I sat on a chair and I ate snacks today

certainly not a lot to be proud of

[Deilla]

I cried a lot today. I am just too sensitive some times. I saw a video on TikTok that triggered me. I think I cried for 10 minutes. I was so upset that my cat started crying. I'm doing better now.

Another weird Monday and it never fails! I've got to find a bookie for myself to lay down bets that it's going to be a weird Monday. I'd end up winning all of the time and be rich. Lots of little weird things happened to make me feel bad - one after another.

Well it least it was fairly busy at work, so that was alright. Nice that the day is over.

[zapatoes]

Yes I’m very glad Monday is over, it can be difficult to adjust back to work after the weekend off.

[Yzen]

I had to face an unpleasant task yesterday and glad it is done but it still feels like it is 'with' me.

ditto yesterday

but I figured it was coming. nothing was ever planned or talked about re: today

[Rose76]

I am so content doing nothing. I just read and watch TV. I've got to find a reason to want to do something.

[Breaking Dawn]

I had dreaded so much the idea of shopping at the market yesterday, but I made myself do it. It seems like such a little thing & like I'm making it bigger than it is, but I have actually had moments where I felt victorious about it, I mean having it behind me, getting it done in spite of my nervousness about it.