[Buffy01]

I been feeling really depressed again. I been fighting it.

[Deilla]

I had an Okay day. I feel better now but earlier I was really depressed. I slept most of the day. Sleeping is just about the only thing that feels good.

Today was a pretty good day even though there were a little bit of craziness in it. Fairly busy at work today, which was nice. Took a bike ride after work.

[childofchaos831]

started iop today, was nervous about saying in group that sui thoughts and self harm are our main target areas as well as ED and agoraphobia. terrified to say it really. cuz we just got out of IP recently. really don't want to go back. couldn't even say, i'll be safe, had to just say, i'll be here in the morning. couldn't use the word safe.

Planned one thing. Then plans changed, complicated themselves and didn’t pan out like I had hoped they could. Glad the weather warmed up again but I am am disappointed in end of summer plans falling through. Hoped spring plans would be better but so far, not looking too good.

[3rd rock]

I really don't care about anything anymore. I don't care about working or not working, or anything like that. If I don't find a new job then eventually I'll be unable to pay rent and buy food, or else return to my current job, but I don't care if that happens. I don't care about any problems.

[jrae]

just one of those terrible days..... when it seems like all you are is a burden to those around you -> physical, financial, emotional, whatever...... the kind that hurts so deep, it brings you to tears

[Deilla]

I'm worried about my cat this morning. But I gave her some medicine. I hope it starts working soon. I am fine just stressed about her.

[Breaking Dawn]

I have been considering making some changes in the way I view things in my life. And I changed my routine a little bit this morning, just to see how it felt to do things differently.

I am feeling annoyed by a compliment made to me today (I just can't accept compliments)

someone said to me " you don't look like the type of person who would give up", after I told them how much I enjoy linken park's music.

oh if only you knew the half of it... I have been their, I am still their, and I am that type of person.

I just don't see it I guess. I can't see the good in me (if their's any.)

nothing else planned today. I'm litirally only awake because guess what?. I hurt too much to sleep.

[tigerlily84]

I think my low mood is due to the Trintellix. I told the nurse practitioner and she is going to increase the dose for now. Hopefully this will do the trick. She was suggesting either Viibryd or Latuda if there is no improvement but I said I think it may be too soon to tell if the trintellix is working. Also my state reversed its denial on my disability claim and just in time so I can actually pay my rent and car. I'm hopeful that things will get better soon. I may be looking at an extension of my return to work date if I don't do well on the med increase.

[Deilla]

I'm having a difficult time at the moment. I can't sleep and I've been stress eating. Hopefully soon here I will go back to bed and sleep until 9 am.

[T4bbyCat]

Need to move to a new house in a few weeks, but can't seem to get started. Mostly sleeping all day. Things are also getting "interesting" in the USA, so I wonder what sorts of disruption or worse await us over the next few weeks.

it has been raining all night, and, acording to the weather forcast, it's ghere to stay all weekend- glad of that, love rain.

not doing much today (surprise surprise), showered in pain, now sat here doing nothing

later I'll have mcdonalds which of course I am looking forward to. yum yum

but that's it for today

I really don't like where I'm living. I'm not hungry, feel very depressed, back on all meds for depression but it seems to do nothing. Nothing changes. Nothing can make me even content. Tinnitus is really bad so almost no sleep. Several times I catch myself thinking there has to be more to life than this.

[Deilla]

I'm lonely today. I tried all day to keep myself busy. I even tried calling someone. But like usual, no one answered.

[Rose76]

Feeling pretty upbeat. Have a hard time getting going in the morning.

[3rd rock]

Renewed my truck's insurance. Bought groceries.

Psychiatrist seems to not be replying to texts, which makes me worried something bad's happened, like a heart attack or a car accident or something.

Baked potato with broccoli and cheddar for dinner this evening. I’ve forgotten how long potatoes take to bake and had to open the window for some fresh air. Got to sleep as soon as my head hit my pillow but am now up in the middle of the night and feeling suffocated with the sound of silence- could use a mouse stirring. Settled on a white noise app to help fill the awkwardness. Worked on positive self-talk earlier today, went on a bike ride and am now feeling less like I am alone in this world.

Woke up sad/scared I but feel better now.

[Deilla]

I'm alright this morning. Not great but I'm Okay. I ordered breakfast from McDonald's. So I'm excited about that. It's a treat for me and I need comfort food today. I hope to get more sleep later on.

I was very busy yesterday. And I spent a lot of money shopping, which I normally don't do. Stuff was costing a lot and they were bare necessities, not extravagant items.

Yesterday I emailed the apartment manager saying that there are some people not leashing their dogs. I guess she appreciated me letting her know. I felt bad, feeling like a squealer. I had feelings of remorse after I did it. But in all fairness I have a fear of dogs, especially those that are loose. I don't know what's wrong with these people. They think the rules (and laws) don't apply to them because they are special.

I woke up feeling very depressed. I'm realizing that I don't have much going for me socially. Also last week had been a trying week for me emotionally with the current events.

I ate so much my stomach now hurts. that is what I did today and it sucks so much. not that my stomach hurts, *(though it is ow), the fact that not only did I not get any sleep yesterday because of my pain, but my first thought was to sit on my chair and eat candy- not at all productive.

Went for a walk after having a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Accomplished small tasks and am feeling very guarded emotionally. Every time I let someone in, no matter how liberal and patient I am, nothing works. I’m better off committing myself to a hobby and keeping to myself. Goodbye again.

Today was a typical Sunday for me. It's still so dang hot outside! I wish that the weather was fall-like instead of feeling like the middle of summer in the desert.

My sister called. It went alright. Nothing too eventful. And I took a longer bike ride.

Been having some small headaches recently. At times I feel a bit light headed with it.