Cleaned this morning and went to the store because I forgot an important ingredient to make my spaghetti sauce. Afterwards, nothing much as usual lately. Since I had my procedure last Monday, I have felt "grounded" and "shut down". It looks like it's going to continue that way for next week. I hope I can make it emotionally, since it's so hard.

[Breaking Dawn]

Sometimes today it's been pretty difficult. But I'm ok enough at the moment.

[Kelly68]

I think I might have a plan for my problems, it's financial and housing. I think I see a light at the end of the tunnel.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by T4bbyCat

Congratulations on the novel... two days or even two months is not really enough time to judge, especially given how some of the most popular works ever didn't catch on until years after their release.

I'm mostly a reader of sci-fi, gritty detective or lawyer story and James Patterson-style pulp fiction, but maybe if you feel like sharing a link to the book, we could have a look...

I'm afraid I can't postva link publicly because I don't want my posts to be associated with my literary persona. However if you would like to see I could send you a private message with a link to my books on Amazon.

[Kelly68]

I'm not well at all. I want this mess figured out, I thought I got good advice, but not really. This is unbelievably hard, I never thought I'd run into the problems I'm having. I didn't sleep a wink all night and not well for months. I said I'd count my blessings, I just don't know why things went so wrong.... I feel like I'm completely lost. I hope I get sleep today...... I wish no one had depression... it's a lot harder than most people can understand.

[Breaking Dawn]

Some changes I'm trying to adjust to.

I made my spaghetti sauce this morning and did little odds and ends. That's the highlight of the day for me. I feel frustrated that it's so nice outside and no bike riding. Some people have made suggestions that I should try to get out and do something, but I don't know what to do. Since I had that procedure on my face, I don't want to press my luck at doing something I shouldn't do, especially since it's doctor's orders.

[T4bbyCat]

Last day of nicely cool weather. Another heat wave forecast, to start ramping up tomorrow. Wonderful.

[Rose76]

Not doing too good. Been awake all night

I have had a headache since yesterday and still have.

[regretful]

It just makes everything worse, or at least seem worse than it really is. Fatigued, trapped, sluggish, and confused by it all...as always, I wish all of you well battling this invisible demon.

[Deilla]

I'm having a difficult day. I think I need to increase my AD. I see my med provider on Thursday.

A little more busier today and feeling a little bit better. Still the restrictions I have continues and it gets me down. I cleaned the horizontal venetian blinds this morning. It seemed like hard and tedious work. And the blinds don't look a whole lot better than before.

I still have a headache, but not so intense.

[Mountaindewed]

This week so far I’ve been feeling pretty depressed. Yesterday afternoon especially. I didn’t have much of an appetite and I just wanted to listen to my podcast all day. People were telling me to wait to find a job but yesterday my therapist said it’s fine to go ahead and that this is in the same category as companies hiring pregnant women who will need to take 6 weeks off in a couple months. That motivated me to apply to the 2 jobs I want the most. My old job, just at a different location, and the local library. I hope I hear something back or else I will wait until after my surgery to figure out something else.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm kind of doing ok. Feeling mediocre sadness & anxiety.

Today has been the best day in eight days since I had that procedure on my face. Was busy in the morning and half of the afternoon. I'm still restricted to what I can do. I received some good news today. It's pretty small, but the good news will do. I'm not feeling depressed as much today as in the past eight days.

[Deilla]

I'm sad and lonely tonight.

[Rose76]

In the last two months, I've let everything in my life go to heck in a handcart. Come to find out I had no fuel in my tank. Yesterday I went to the hospital for some intravenous iron. That will reduce the anemia, but it won't automatically strengthen under-used muscles. I'm deconditioned. I've gotten so used to being on the couch. I have to get up and straighten up my life.

I'll eat something and take a shower. If I just start and don't give up, I guess I can turn things around. But I keep stalling. I sat here all day thinking: "Yeah, I better get going on this place." Inertia is a tough foe, especially with no one around to encourage me.

[Aardwolf]

I feel cold. I don't know why, but I know that I do.

[Deilla]

I feel sad, lonely and bored. I have nothing to do today. I could do a few chores. That would be something. Maybe I need to go back to bed.

[Breaking Dawn]

My plans yesterday fell through & today I feel that I really let myself down.

[regretful]

Be vigilant when the depression remits as this invisible foe creeps its way back into your life so subtly...before you know it, you're back in the rut. That's where I am now. Medications, which I've tried in the past, have not been a good course for me. So now, I just keep progressing, one day at a time, and it seems to be trudging through misery more than anything else. I wish I saw some way out of the trap that I'm in right now...I wish all of you well in your fight against this miserable demon.

Not as busy today, but feeling a little bit better or more adjusted to the temporary (I hope!) restrictions I have going for me. I will have stuff to do in the next three days that's going to keep me busy. Maybe by Monday I'll have the restrictions lifted and get back to normal.

I have been getting a lot of spam email lately (a lot more than usual)

many from services I don't even use (paypal, norton anti virus, a diffrent bank etc)

it's annoying

had to buy a new dvd player this week. the one I had finally packed up and stopped laying dvds.

new one's better though, I'm impressed with it..

have too at some point get a new debit card too- old one's about to expire.