[Breaking Dawn]

I went to the market today & everything ended up better than I worried about. I was walking through the neighborhood & saw a group of adorable birds fly to where I was & land on the wires above me. Obviously a family, or each others' friends. I really enjoyed watching them.

Very down day today. Less stuff going on at work than usual. Enough as it is, it's very dead at work on a "new normal" day that we are having recently. It seems like the days and nights are just dragging. I'm just not feeling very uplifted and encouraged now.

[Deilla]

I feel tired this morning and a little stressed. I don't like the long dark nights.

Not much going on today. Things at work were irritating me. It seems like it takes a while for those feeling to fade after leaving work.

Worked out after work and that's about it.

[Deilla]

I feel sad this morning. My inner critic is pretty active.

[Breaking Dawn]

I think I'm doing pretty good today. I ate a good breakfast this morning & took supplements. My attitude is good right now.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I think I'm doing pretty good today. I ate a good breakfast this morning & took supplements. My attitude is good right now.

That's great to hear. My ''attitude'' could be better. I still am hurt by the same old abusers

I heard them the first time. They are so much ''better'' than I am

And I also heard them the first time they screamed at me that my life has NO value

(not anyone on pc)

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

That's great to hear. My ''attitude'' could be better. I still am hurt by the same old abusers

I heard them the first time. They are so much ''better'' than I am

And I also heard them the first time they screamed at me that my life has NO value

(not anyone on pc)

Oh, goodness! why are people like that? Well there's one answer I can give. It's because they are hurting bad themselves, probably hurting more than you are. But still that doesn't comfort.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by will19

Oh, goodness! why are people like that? Well there's one answer I can give. It's because they are hurting bad themselves, probably hurting more than you are. But still that doesn't comfort.

Thanks, I'm not convinced that those people are hurting more than I am, but yeah, I know what you mean

Feeling very down right now. I spent a lot of money today shopping, just for essentials and nothing extravagant. Also there were long lines at shopping, which took longer time for me to be away from home.

My ex-friend (now) called me. We ended up arguing which reminds me that I don't miss him. Though I feel like I miss the "object" of him (had a friend but now having no one).

[Fuzzybear]

I do not know why so many people are disrespectful. They make me even more tired.

[Deilla]

I'm struggling with sleep tonight and I feel pretty down. My depression has to do with it being dark and at the end of the day. That's why I wish I could sleep. I took extra trazodone and that didn't help. I can take up to two. I still have half a pill I can take. I may do that and try to get more sleep.

I felt depressed this morning and that time seemed to drag. At noon my sister called. For some strange reason I get a feeling that something's wrong with her. She sounds very depressed, sleepy, and unfocused. She tells me things are fine but I find it's hard to believe. I don't feel so good after talking to her.

In the afternoon so much happened. I went for a bike ride and got a flat tire. I couldn't fix it so I walked to the nearest bus station, which was quite a walk. It's the first time I had ever taken the bus at where I live. I was nervous. The people around me were very helpful and it all worked out well. After that I took my bike to the shop. I needed some work done on it anyways.

Right now I'm feeling depressed and alone. I'm dreading tomorrow because there seemed to be some personal tension last Friday. I'm still missing the friend I recently let go because he was all that I had. I don't miss the abuse I got from him. Also I miss the Jacuzzi at where I live.

[3rd rock]

Bullying at work. I will do something about it.

[Breaking Dawn]

I have been sleeping a lot because of insomnia & the body has been putting me to sleep, & then I wake up at odd times, realizing I have been asleep.

[Deilla]

I took 2 Trazodone last night. That helped me rest for a while. I'm up at my regular time. That's Okay. I feel good. I will get more sleep later. I have an appointment today. I feel calm about it. For me, that is progress.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m kind of down right now. I’m not having any bad thoughts I just want to take cough syrup so I can sleep through this pain that’s been waking me up every night. I don’t have control of the cough syrup and I just need to wait a bit and these feelings will pass the way they did last night. I’m getting a weighted sleep mask for Christmas. So I’m hoping that helps. I do well with other sensory related things. If I just hold off for like half an hour or so these thoughts will pass.

It started off being a pretty nice day and then some weirdness came along later. Worked out after work.

[Deilla]

I feel sad this morning. Things aren't working out. And I'm worried.

[Fuzzybear]

[Mountaindewed]

I feel down but I don’t have any bad thoughts or cough syrup/ melatonin thoughts either. Basically I’m just super tired. I am trying so hard but I don’t know if I’m making any progress and there’s no one to really ask. I thought I’d be getting a lot more one on one time with this program then I actually am. I guess I just don’t feel very supported.

[Fuzzybear]

UGH. Why do I bother with this crap? How many times do I get stung by that same **** before I give up on it??

(not about anyone on pc)

[Deilla]

I'm doing Okay. I could use more sleep. Hopefully, I'll get more rest later this morning.

[3rd rock]

I tried publishing a new story, something radically different from anything I've published before. It's not selling either. I'm so depressed. I feel so lost.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I tried publishing a new story, something radically different from anything I've published before. It's not selling either. I'm so depressed. I feel so lost.

That's great that you tried something different. Maybe it is just taking some time to catch on. I can relate though. I created an Etsy store with my art and nothing sold. But I think these things take time. James Patterson sent his first book to several publishers before one finally accepted it. The thing is to keep trying. I wish you much success.